Well just feeling a bit emotional at the moment! It's like I'm a cutter who just needs to do something with my hands so I keep clicking on pregnancy diaries of girls I was ttc with in the early days or girls that were in the forum thread due in May which is when our angel baby was due!
I guess it's just hitting home that I should be around 36weeks pregnany not 7 weeks! It's a hard feeling! I've generally coped pretty well since the miscarriage but I think as the date approaches (30th May) I'll start needing some time to just "be"! It's really difficult to think I should be finished work, and in final preparation stages for bub to make its way into the world!
I understand that our angel just wasn't ready and am sooo grateful that I am pregnant again and am praying this one sticks (I'm just not sure how I will cope and if I could ever pull myself out of the abyss if I lost this one)! But nothing will stop it being hard to realise I'm still so far away from holding that precious bundle in my arms!! It really sucks sometimes!
I've had a reasonably good day symptom wise today! Tired and a little bit of m/s in the morning (for a change) but then the rest of the day felt ok... just tired! I'm not letting one good day worry me though!! I have no reason to this anything has gone wrong! I'l hopefully get to see baby again on Tuesday at my OB appointment and reassure myself that everything is going ok! I have to admit this last week has flown by so hopefully the next 5 weeks fly by so we can relax and take a breath and tell everyone! I am dying to really get this out there!! I just know how much support and love I will have and I hate lying to people who keep asking but that is the way the game is played unfortunately!
I guess the upside of taking longer to ttc is that I have met some great people -my FB ladies know who they are and how much I love that we are so supportive of each other and can make me laugh!! It's so good to know they are there for any questions I have (they're so smart!!) :P
Friday, April 30, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
6w 4d
Ok so I know the dates are a bit out of whack but since the scan put me back a bit we're still here!!
Well morning sickness has DEFINITELY kicked in! At work today and just struggled! Seabands are doing nothing besides making dents in my wrists so I finally succumbed to going to the chemist and getting some Blackmores Morning Sickness Tablets! Touch wood it kicked in and I feel fine - not great but fine enough to get through the rest of my work day! ARGH!! What a croc! I;m so over this place... I just need to think...6 months to go and I can be outta here and enjoy the summer with my baby!!
Nothing exciting to report - will be telling my BFF sometime in the next couple of days! My BFF is also my cousin! Mum is DYING to tell my aunty (we are an extremely close family) but she knows she is not allowed to say anything until I have told J! So at least then I'll have one friend who understands why I've suddenly become a hermit - and it's not that I'm wallowing in self pity as everyone else believes AF arrived!!
I'm very happy feeling like crap though as it means baby is in there sucking my hormones and the life out of me! I apparently ovulated from my left ovary..same as last time..interesting! But apparently thats who I have to blame for my crazy hormones! Felt some twinging in there today (the left ovary) so just assumed more hormones were being produced!!
Well I suppose I better get back to doing some sort of work...ergh!!! I would much rather spend the afternoon in bed! It's so snuggly in there!!
Well morning sickness has DEFINITELY kicked in! At work today and just struggled! Seabands are doing nothing besides making dents in my wrists so I finally succumbed to going to the chemist and getting some Blackmores Morning Sickness Tablets! Touch wood it kicked in and I feel fine - not great but fine enough to get through the rest of my work day! ARGH!! What a croc! I;m so over this place... I just need to think...6 months to go and I can be outta here and enjoy the summer with my baby!!
Nothing exciting to report - will be telling my BFF sometime in the next couple of days! My BFF is also my cousin! Mum is DYING to tell my aunty (we are an extremely close family) but she knows she is not allowed to say anything until I have told J! So at least then I'll have one friend who understands why I've suddenly become a hermit - and it's not that I'm wallowing in self pity as everyone else believes AF arrived!!
I'm very happy feeling like crap though as it means baby is in there sucking my hormones and the life out of me! I apparently ovulated from my left ovary..same as last time..interesting! But apparently thats who I have to blame for my crazy hormones! Felt some twinging in there today (the left ovary) so just assumed more hormones were being produced!!
Well I suppose I better get back to doing some sort of work...ergh!!! I would much rather spend the afternoon in bed! It's so snuggly in there!!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
First Scan - Baby's first pic!!
Well we had our scan today and I am please to say that everything went well! I woke up bright and early and snoozed again before I managed to drag myself out of bed - feeling really crampy thinking it was all going wrong. I put that down to a mix of morning sickness and just phyically being so nervous I couldn't stand up properly!
Baby is tucked in the right hand side there! All snug! It was just the biggest relief hearing that news! So we'll go back for another scan in about 3 weeks to just make sure everything is going along peachy!! Plus I'm seeing Dr. John again next week and he'll no doubt do another scan in his rooms - but that won't be internal!
Also found out I have a retroverted uterus...according to google: A retroverted uterus means the uterus is tipped backwards so that it aims towards the rectum instead of forward towards the belly. Doesn't really have much bearing on me at the moment but it was interesting to know! She said it's as common as being left handed (yep got that one too)!! I shouldn't be surprised - I am lefted handed, have rare blood type (AB-) and now this! I tend to get all the 'special' things! haha
Morning sickness is definitely getting worse! I struggle to even stand up sometimes. I haven't thrown up yet but I am trying really hard to not give in. I think it will only be a matter of time before deep breathing and laying perfectly still will not help anymore! I hate throwing up so am putting it off in a big way!
Not sure how I will cope at work tomorrow after 4 days off which is when the morning sickness has really jumped up a notch! I struggle all day now and it's really hard! I've got the seabands but they make my hands tingly after a while so I can' only wear them for a little while before having to take them off!
I think tonight might be one of the last meals Peter cooks for me for a while! I'm struggling! Food wise I need it to be bland and even drink wise I'm struggling. Soft drink, juice all of it just blurgh! I sip on water when I think I can keep it down coz I know I need to be having some liquids! I've spent the last 2 afternoons in bed for hours! Exhaustion and morning sickness- this baby is kicking my ass! But that's ok - I just keep telling myself and Peter that this is exactly what we wanted and it'll all be worth it in the end!!!
Dear Bubbles,
Today you are officially 2 weeks and 3 days old! You are .65cm long so are growning exactly as you should be! We were so excited to see you and that nice little heartbeat of yours! Thank you for making us so happy today! I can't wait to see you again!
It's good to see that you are using all the energy I have to give and even being picky with what you would like to eat and drink - I'm glad you are putting it to good use!
We are so proud of you - you are simply amazing!
Love Mummy! xo
I made Peter drive as I was about to burst in to tears at the drop of a hat! I just couldn't face going in there to get bad news again! I just don't know if I could've coped with that!
So I had to have an internal scan which I knew so wasn't too worried and all went well!
My dates have been put back 2 days which is ok - I'm now due the 18th December!! Which I'm happy with! There was a teeny tiny heart beat of 113bpm which made me soo happy! And measuring at .65cm!
Baby is tucked in the right hand side there! All snug! It was just the biggest relief hearing that news! So we'll go back for another scan in about 3 weeks to just make sure everything is going along peachy!! Plus I'm seeing Dr. John again next week and he'll no doubt do another scan in his rooms - but that won't be internal!
Also found out I have a retroverted uterus...according to google: A retroverted uterus means the uterus is tipped backwards so that it aims towards the rectum instead of forward towards the belly. Doesn't really have much bearing on me at the moment but it was interesting to know! She said it's as common as being left handed (yep got that one too)!! I shouldn't be surprised - I am lefted handed, have rare blood type (AB-) and now this! I tend to get all the 'special' things! haha
Morning sickness is definitely getting worse! I struggle to even stand up sometimes. I haven't thrown up yet but I am trying really hard to not give in. I think it will only be a matter of time before deep breathing and laying perfectly still will not help anymore! I hate throwing up so am putting it off in a big way!
Not sure how I will cope at work tomorrow after 4 days off which is when the morning sickness has really jumped up a notch! I struggle all day now and it's really hard! I've got the seabands but they make my hands tingly after a while so I can' only wear them for a little while before having to take them off!
I think tonight might be one of the last meals Peter cooks for me for a while! I'm struggling! Food wise I need it to be bland and even drink wise I'm struggling. Soft drink, juice all of it just blurgh! I sip on water when I think I can keep it down coz I know I need to be having some liquids! I've spent the last 2 afternoons in bed for hours! Exhaustion and morning sickness- this baby is kicking my ass! But that's ok - I just keep telling myself and Peter that this is exactly what we wanted and it'll all be worth it in the end!!!
Dear Bubbles,
Today you are officially 2 weeks and 3 days old! You are .65cm long so are growning exactly as you should be! We were so excited to see you and that nice little heartbeat of yours! Thank you for making us so happy today! I can't wait to see you again!
It's good to see that you are using all the energy I have to give and even being picky with what you would like to eat and drink - I'm glad you are putting it to good use!
We are so proud of you - you are simply amazing!
Love Mummy! xo
Friday, April 23, 2010
6w 1d
Morning sickness has well and truly kicked in as of yesterday! YAY! haha Whilst I'm not enjoying feeling like crap I am definitely enjoying feeling this progression of symptoms come on as I find it reassuring that things are still progressing!!
I haven't actually been physically sick yet but I tend to spend most of the morning feeling awful and wanting to throw up! Despite eating - that does nothing! Though I have found bland foods best! Like banana = bad vegemite on toast = bad but plain marg on toast - BING!!! So poor Peter will either be left eating bland food with me or he can cook his own dinner - which I think once he realised that this is real and could go for a little while he'll start to do that! At the moment he feels bad when I'm not feeling well!
I'm trying not to milk it too much at the moment and save it all for when I'm so big I can't actually do much but as he said last night 'I have plenty of browny points saved up!!' He's such a dear! The other night I layed on the couch whilst he gave me a foot massage (which is big as I never let anyone touch my feet) and then he rubbed vitamin E on my belly! So cute! Even if it doesn't do much it at least lets him feel like he is doing his bit!!
Told mum and dad on Wednesday night! They were excited! Mum said Jac (my sis) would be super excited as she has felt bad since we lost the baby as she is 32 weeks pregnant now and can't hide it! And as much as I've tried to induce baby talk etc. from her it has taken some of the shine off her pregnancy which is unfortunate! But she'll be very happy now as we were due 3 weeks apart (me first) so we were looking forward to being pregnant together! Whilst its not exactly the same now at least I'll be in the 'safe' zone by the time her bubba is born so at least most of the anxiety will have worn off and I can enjoy the birth of my niece without it being bittersweet!!
Have our first scan on Tuesday so 4 days away! I'm excited but I can imagine how I will feel on Tuesday before going in - I will just be sooooo scared! Like I think I'll cry even before I get in there as we haven't had a successful scan yet!! So I have absolutely everything crossed for this one!
So symptom wise I'm still just sooo tired - I even managed to sleep well last night, peeing a lot (especially at night), boobs are still sore, feeling constantly seedy and hungover and metallic taste in my mouth which makes me not want to eat despite the fact I'm STARVING!!!
So all in all I'm going along like a typically pregnant woman and loving every second of it!!
Dear Bubbles,
Today you are 4weeks and 1 day old! If I remember correctly you will now be developing a heart beat all of your own! How exciting! We are cheering you on every day to get all big and strong in there!!
Daddy and I talk about you constantly! You have started making me feel a little bit sick but that's ok - it means good things! Also you seem to only want to eat plain foods..I hope you don't become a fussy eater like I am! Especially when Daddy is such a fantastic cook!
I hope everything is ok in there at the moment Bubbles - 4 days til we see you and I can't wait to see just how strong that little heartbeat of yours is! We are so proud of you - you are simply amazing!
Love Mummy! xoxo
I haven't actually been physically sick yet but I tend to spend most of the morning feeling awful and wanting to throw up! Despite eating - that does nothing! Though I have found bland foods best! Like banana = bad vegemite on toast = bad but plain marg on toast - BING!!! So poor Peter will either be left eating bland food with me or he can cook his own dinner - which I think once he realised that this is real and could go for a little while he'll start to do that! At the moment he feels bad when I'm not feeling well!
I'm trying not to milk it too much at the moment and save it all for when I'm so big I can't actually do much but as he said last night 'I have plenty of browny points saved up!!' He's such a dear! The other night I layed on the couch whilst he gave me a foot massage (which is big as I never let anyone touch my feet) and then he rubbed vitamin E on my belly! So cute! Even if it doesn't do much it at least lets him feel like he is doing his bit!!
Told mum and dad on Wednesday night! They were excited! Mum said Jac (my sis) would be super excited as she has felt bad since we lost the baby as she is 32 weeks pregnant now and can't hide it! And as much as I've tried to induce baby talk etc. from her it has taken some of the shine off her pregnancy which is unfortunate! But she'll be very happy now as we were due 3 weeks apart (me first) so we were looking forward to being pregnant together! Whilst its not exactly the same now at least I'll be in the 'safe' zone by the time her bubba is born so at least most of the anxiety will have worn off and I can enjoy the birth of my niece without it being bittersweet!!
Have our first scan on Tuesday so 4 days away! I'm excited but I can imagine how I will feel on Tuesday before going in - I will just be sooooo scared! Like I think I'll cry even before I get in there as we haven't had a successful scan yet!! So I have absolutely everything crossed for this one!
So symptom wise I'm still just sooo tired - I even managed to sleep well last night, peeing a lot (especially at night), boobs are still sore, feeling constantly seedy and hungover and metallic taste in my mouth which makes me not want to eat despite the fact I'm STARVING!!!
So all in all I'm going along like a typically pregnant woman and loving every second of it!!
Dear Bubbles,
Today you are 4weeks and 1 day old! If I remember correctly you will now be developing a heart beat all of your own! How exciting! We are cheering you on every day to get all big and strong in there!!
Daddy and I talk about you constantly! You have started making me feel a little bit sick but that's ok - it means good things! Also you seem to only want to eat plain foods..I hope you don't become a fussy eater like I am! Especially when Daddy is such a fantastic cook!
I hope everything is ok in there at the moment Bubbles - 4 days til we see you and I can't wait to see just how strong that little heartbeat of yours is! We are so proud of you - you are simply amazing!
Love Mummy! xoxo
Monday, April 19, 2010
5w 4d
Evening!! Well after sitting on the edge of my seat all weekend I completed my 2 blood tests and got the results - EXCELLENT!!!
Fridays were 2540 (up from 83 6 days prior) and todays (Monday) were nearly 10,000!!!! JEEPERS!! Dr. John asked if we had a history of twins in the family..eerrrr no! So now of course that seed is planted! I know the range is pretty big for where I'm at but that's some pretty impressive numbers!
Even though I know its not smooth sailing from this point it is nice to not feel anxious and stressed for at least 5 minutes of this first 12 weeks! Peter got pretty stressed when I mentioned the possibility of twins (due to money) but I've told him it's probably only one baby so don't stress!!
Have booked in for a scan next Tuesday! I am SO EXCITED! I'll be 6w 5d so I'm praying everything is peachy keen and there is a super healthy heartbeat beating away in there as angel bubs only made is as far as 6w 3d (though held on til week 9)!! I'm just over the mood with those numbers! Would explain why I'm just sooo tired though!
Ive had to go out and buy some crop tops (I feel like I'm 12) to sleep in coz my boobs are getting so sore to be out of a bar! I've promised Peter I'll buy some nice maternity ones! As I said to him 'I may wear my comfy cotton friendly undies...but I always make sure my bra is nice!' hahaha
No news symptoms really! Still just bloated, tired (had to have a 10min power nap in my car at lunch), feel off every now and then and eating...a lot! I'm trying to keep it healthy though!!
Told work today too! Mainly because they know about the previous miscarriage so they can be supportive for appointments and things like that! Going to try getting in early a few times this week so I can leave early if need be! I'm just struggling in the afternoons!!
Geared up to tell Mum and Dad tonight as the results came back good but got to their house only to remember mum is on night shift this week! So it'll wait til Wednesday now! Though she has to keep a lid on it as it's my BFF's birthday Wednesday night (she is also my cousin) so I don't want to go stealing her thunder!! Please I don't want to tell more family til we have the scan on Tuesday! I'd love to keep it til the scan for everyone but mum keeps asking! I've bought some time but won't be able to for much longer!!
Well I've rambled on enough for tonight...will update again soon!! :)
Dear Bubbles,
Today you are 3 week and 4 days old and my are you snuggling in tight if my hormone levels are anything to go by! You certainly impressed me and the doctor today! :) I'm very proud of you already. Though I wonder if there is only one of you in there? I get to see you in one week! Daddy and I are just so excited about it - you should hopefully have your little heart beating away in there!
You are still making me tired but I am still willing to give you everything every single day! I can not wait to be your mummy outside my tummy! I can't wait to go shopping for you and make up your nursery so you'll have somewhere to sleep and call your own!
We just love you so much! You are an amazing little being and we couldn't be more excited you chose to set up home in my belly!!
Love Mummy! xoxo
Fridays were 2540 (up from 83 6 days prior) and todays (Monday) were nearly 10,000!!!! JEEPERS!! Dr. John asked if we had a history of twins in the family..eerrrr no! So now of course that seed is planted! I know the range is pretty big for where I'm at but that's some pretty impressive numbers!
Even though I know its not smooth sailing from this point it is nice to not feel anxious and stressed for at least 5 minutes of this first 12 weeks! Peter got pretty stressed when I mentioned the possibility of twins (due to money) but I've told him it's probably only one baby so don't stress!!
Have booked in for a scan next Tuesday! I am SO EXCITED! I'll be 6w 5d so I'm praying everything is peachy keen and there is a super healthy heartbeat beating away in there as angel bubs only made is as far as 6w 3d (though held on til week 9)!! I'm just over the mood with those numbers! Would explain why I'm just sooo tired though!
Ive had to go out and buy some crop tops (I feel like I'm 12) to sleep in coz my boobs are getting so sore to be out of a bar! I've promised Peter I'll buy some nice maternity ones! As I said to him 'I may wear my comfy cotton friendly undies...but I always make sure my bra is nice!' hahaha
No news symptoms really! Still just bloated, tired (had to have a 10min power nap in my car at lunch), feel off every now and then and eating...a lot! I'm trying to keep it healthy though!!
Told work today too! Mainly because they know about the previous miscarriage so they can be supportive for appointments and things like that! Going to try getting in early a few times this week so I can leave early if need be! I'm just struggling in the afternoons!!
Geared up to tell Mum and Dad tonight as the results came back good but got to their house only to remember mum is on night shift this week! So it'll wait til Wednesday now! Though she has to keep a lid on it as it's my BFF's birthday Wednesday night (she is also my cousin) so I don't want to go stealing her thunder!! Please I don't want to tell more family til we have the scan on Tuesday! I'd love to keep it til the scan for everyone but mum keeps asking! I've bought some time but won't be able to for much longer!!
Well I've rambled on enough for tonight...will update again soon!! :)
Dear Bubbles,
Today you are 3 week and 4 days old and my are you snuggling in tight if my hormone levels are anything to go by! You certainly impressed me and the doctor today! :) I'm very proud of you already. Though I wonder if there is only one of you in there? I get to see you in one week! Daddy and I are just so excited about it - you should hopefully have your little heart beating away in there!
You are still making me tired but I am still willing to give you everything every single day! I can not wait to be your mummy outside my tummy! I can't wait to go shopping for you and make up your nursery so you'll have somewhere to sleep and call your own!
We just love you so much! You are an amazing little being and we couldn't be more excited you chose to set up home in my belly!!
Love Mummy! xoxo
Friday, April 16, 2010
OBs Appointment and more tests!
Yes well I got my results from my blood test last night.. all my routine blood tests came back normal...not that I'm surprised! My HCG was only 83 which put me on the back foot but then I remind myself that it was a whole week ago and I'd only just gotten my positive!!
The tests keep getting darker and symptoms worsen so I can only assume that my HCG levels are going up! Just hoping they are going up the right amount! SIT TIGHT LITTLE BUBBA!!
So decided to take the day off work! I can not sit through another boring day..I just can't do it! I had cramps and stuff last night but I think it may have been caused by being a bit 'blocked up'! JOY! haha So took today off and used it to clean the kitchen, dining room and go to my OB appointment!
I just love Dr. John! He is just so lovely! I thought he would scoff at me for coming in so early but he was sooo good! I got a quick scan on the machine in his rooms..which quite frankly scared the crap out of me as it was EXACTLY the same place I heard the bad news about my angel baby so all those memories just came flooding back only this time I didn't have Peter beside me! He moved the wand around a bit and then saw a teeny tiny sac! :) So HE sent me off for more blood tests today then again on Monday to check my levels! I'm to call him on Tuesday to get those results and we go from there!
He is really good and wants to monitor me like every 10 days to make sure everything is going A-OK which is reassuring! I'm just praying that baby hangs around in there!!
Well heading out tonight so I might go have a lie down as it's nap time in this pregnant woman's world!!
The tests keep getting darker and symptoms worsen so I can only assume that my HCG levels are going up! Just hoping they are going up the right amount! SIT TIGHT LITTLE BUBBA!!
So decided to take the day off work! I can not sit through another boring day..I just can't do it! I had cramps and stuff last night but I think it may have been caused by being a bit 'blocked up'! JOY! haha So took today off and used it to clean the kitchen, dining room and go to my OB appointment!
I just love Dr. John! He is just so lovely! I thought he would scoff at me for coming in so early but he was sooo good! I got a quick scan on the machine in his rooms..which quite frankly scared the crap out of me as it was EXACTLY the same place I heard the bad news about my angel baby so all those memories just came flooding back only this time I didn't have Peter beside me! He moved the wand around a bit and then saw a teeny tiny sac! :) So HE sent me off for more blood tests today then again on Monday to check my levels! I'm to call him on Tuesday to get those results and we go from there!
He is really good and wants to monitor me like every 10 days to make sure everything is going A-OK which is reassuring! I'm just praying that baby hangs around in there!!
Well heading out tonight so I might go have a lie down as it's nap time in this pregnant woman's world!!
Thursday, April 15, 2010
5 WEEKS!!!!
YAY so as the title suggests I am 5 weeks today! YAY! Baby feels like they are cruising along nicely in there! I'm so happy about it all right now! Will tell mum and dad in the next day or so I guess.. (they are expecting news of some variety!)
I have a Dr's appoitment to get my results this afternoon...not that I'm worred! I will get another blood test done tomorrow for a check of my HCG levels and then an appointment with Dr. Suresh John my OB so we can work out when I can book in for a dating scan! I'm really hoping just after Anzac day when I'll be over 6w 3d (the furthest our angel baby made it!) Plus I want guarantee that I'll see a heartbeat so I'm doing everything I can NOT to go to early!!
Took another HPT last night just for peace of mind and on an internet cheapie one I got SUCH a strong line! I was so excited! It means that the hormone is definitely building!! I'd be worried if it was staying faint or getting lighter But NOPE it's there and it can't be missed!!
I have a Dr's appoitment to get my results this afternoon...not that I'm worred! I will get another blood test done tomorrow for a check of my HCG levels and then an appointment with Dr. Suresh John my OB so we can work out when I can book in for a dating scan! I'm really hoping just after Anzac day when I'll be over 6w 3d (the furthest our angel baby made it!) Plus I want guarantee that I'll see a heartbeat so I'm doing everything I can NOT to go to early!!
Took another HPT last night just for peace of mind and on an internet cheapie one I got SUCH a strong line! I was so excited! It means that the hormone is definitely building!! I'd be worried if it was staying faint or getting lighter But NOPE it's there and it can't be missed!!I'm tired...tired tired! It's simple! I just want to sleep all day! Then I get home from work and I wake up for a few hours then am ready to be tucked up in bed again at 8.30! haha Poor Peter! We like to go to bed together but I've been dragging him to bed so early otherwise I'm asleep on the couch! haha But he's been so good! We're both just so over the mood.
Boobs have gotten WAY more sore! Which is exciting! Previously it wasn't ever a progressive thing so it's nice to feel things getting stronger!
Well not much to report though.. I'm over my job and just keep looking toward the end where I can leave and not have to worry about coming back! I'm still wanting to do my cert IV in personal training but seems harder now coz I can't do my hours or anything being pregnant... but I will need to look into something to do once baby is born so we have a small amount of extra income! Though I've been working full time since I was 18 so I can't see me having a problem getting a part time job!!
Dear Bubbles,
Today you are 3 weeks old! How exciting! You are just growing so quickly at this rate! In another week you will have your own heartbeat!! I can't wait to see that and see how strong you are! Everyday I tell myself that you are here and you belong with Daddy and I so we know you will hang around to meet us at the end of this journey! I can not wait!
You are still making me very very tired and every little niggle is a reminder of how lucky I am that you have chosen us! We thank our lucky stars so many times a day that you are with us!
I do get scared that you will leave us and join our angel but I tell myself to enjoy every moment I have with you - and will continue to do so for the rest of my life!
You are already amazing and I will tell you that everyday!
Love you bubbles!
Love Mummy! xoxo
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
4w 5d
Well I'm still just cruising along..not a whole lot to really do!
I'm feeling good about this bubba to be honest! Last time I felt down the whole time...I truly think we are ready for this baby and that baby is ready for us!!
Symptoms wise I'm just so tired! Baby is taking all my energy - but that's ok!! Um... boobs are starting to get sore which is exciting as it means hormones are still rising! I've had some cramping but nothing too painful and no spotting or anything which is a relief!! I can't wait to get a scan to see bubs in there all peachy keen jelly bean!!Dear Bubbles,
Well today you are 2 weeks and 5 days old. You are starting to develop and are now known as an embryo! Aww..!! haha You are draining the life out of me but thats ok - it's one of many things I am willing to sacrifice and give to you to keep you healthy my baby!!
Daddy loves to give you kisses every night which is cute! We are both so excited about you and can't wait to see you on a scan! I wonder what you will look like.... will you have Daddy's blue eyes? Or my dark features? I wonder.... will you be tall like both of us or take after your aunty Laura and Papa and be small....I wonder!!
Hopefully you are nice and snug in there my baby! Can't wait to see you!
Love Mummy! xoxo
Friday, April 9, 2010
4w 1 d
YAY! AF still didn't arrive and I got a clear positive on a internet HPT today!! And I barely got an existent line on that other day! YAY YAY YAY!! haha So sad isn't it - that these little lines rule my life!
Have just been so tired - I can't seem to get past 3pm without wanting to crawl back into bed!! But I've been so busy - though I finally managed to take a night off last night and just relax on the couch! Intended on doing some sort of cleaning but just couldn't be bothered and thought I deserved a night off! So I picked up my cross stitch that I've been working on which will go in the nursery for bubs (mum bought it for me when I was feeling sad one day!!) I'm so proud of it! But being Winnie The Pooh there are soo many other things I want to make before bubs comes along so I'm getting impatient and just want it finished! haha I'm hopeless!!
Have just been so tired - I can't seem to get past 3pm without wanting to crawl back into bed!! But I've been so busy - though I finally managed to take a night off last night and just relax on the couch! Intended on doing some sort of cleaning but just couldn't be bothered and thought I deserved a night off! So I picked up my cross stitch that I've been working on which will go in the nursery for bubs (mum bought it for me when I was feeling sad one day!!) I'm so proud of it! But being Winnie The Pooh there are soo many other things I want to make before bubs comes along so I'm getting impatient and just want it finished! haha I'm hopeless!!
I have done heaps since I took that pic (like both feet, legs and his bottom) but thats a start on what I'm working on anyways!!
How am I feeling? Well I've had a few niggly little pains again.... a few sharp ones last night but nothing sinister. The only way to describe it is like there is something scratching to get out inside me...ok that sounds very ALIENS but eh..thats what it feels like. Am peeing a bit more frequently....boobs are more tender today and I guess I wake up STARVING!! But still just cruising along!
Get the awesome job of designated driver tomorrow night...awesome! haha Nah it'll be good! Though I think one girl there will pick up on it coz she knew about the miscarriage! Will have to think of an excuse there!!
Now a few posts back I wrote about a crazy idea from a psychic about writing a letter to let bubs know we are ready a for them when they are etc. - well I did that at the start of my cycle and slept with it under my pillow/in my hand every single night for the whole time - didn't miss a beat....well I went to get it the night I got my BFP and its gone!! Like just VANISHED! I know I sound like a raving lunatic but I've searched high and low (and asked Peter aswell) and no sign of it!! WEIRD!!!
Well thats it from me today.....YAY it's FRIDAY!!!
Getting a referral for bloods tonight so will get them done first thing tomorrow morning..though not expecting results back til Monday!!
Dear Bubbles:
Today you are 2 weeks and 1 day old. I hope you are really comfy in there and that you know how much you are loved already by Daddy and I. I already know you are amazing and will do great things if you are willing to hang around and find out.
My body is working very hard to make it nice and snug in there for you (I know this as I'm soooo tired) but you know that it is all worth it and I won't be complaining about it at all!!
I think we will be telling Grandma and Papa over the weekend but might keep you our little secret for a bit longer. I hope I will get to see you in 3 weeks..do you want to meet us?
Well that's all for today Bubbles (that is your little nickname as that's what it feels like sometimes)! I'm sure Bubs (you're older sibling..our angel) is doing everything they can to make sure you get in there nice and fitted!!
We love you soo much Bubbles!
Love Mummy! xoxo
Thursday, April 8, 2010
4 WEEKS!!
Yep!! I finally got my BFP! I could not be more excited!!! Scared as hell!!
Wasn't going to test until today...but with my chart looking the way it was how could I not be excited!! I caved yesterday and got a faint positive on a First Response yesterday morning AND at 5pm! Went over to a friends for dinner so didn't get a chance to tell Peter until we got home so was holding on to that little chestnut of information!!
I had gone out and bought a little card with a pic of baby feet in adult hands and just wront 'It's positive! We did it' inside and handed it to him! He was excited but refused to get too excited until he could see a nice strong line! So after another faint positive this morning (I can't get FMU as I get up to pee a couple of times during the night!!) I used a digital one and that came up nice and clear with PREGNANT on it! YAY! So very excited!! Sent a pic of it to PEter so now he can finally be excited about it!
Have made an appointment with my OB Dr. John for next Friday as I can't be bothered stuffing around with GP's who just give me nothing anyway and this way he can book me into the hospital once I have a dating scan etc.!!
I know its early days and I'm petrified it's going to be chemical and AF will show her face or something but for now I will be happy to say we have made it this faR!!
PLEASE BE A STICKY ONE!!!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
12DPO
Okey dokey...well I know it has been a while but with the whole Easter break in there it kind of threw me off a bit!
Well as the title suggests I'm 12DPO and DYING to test! I just want to know either way..I'm not even sure how I feel! My temperatures are looking great and I can't help but get excited about them...but at the same time I'm petrified I'll wake up tomorrow and they'll be dropping.... so who knows! I hate temping but at the same time I feel it is required for a little while just to know I am in fact ovulating at some point after being pretty convinced I was not ovulating post D&C for 3 cycles!!
So its looking good and any 'symptoms' I've had are just utter exhaustion where I've barely been able to funciton clearly in the afternoons at all and just irritated at the smallest things! Having a few niggly feelings down there today but trying hard not to read into anything too much!
Boobs are a bit tender and definitely bigger - it appears as though my nipples stick out A LOT more than they usually do...but again... no idea if thats anything.. I really am just not reading into much this cycle..I'm tired of the let down again and again and again! I say every month I don't know how much more I can take...but to be honest.. I can take a lot more as i'll do anything I can to get that baby for myself and Peter!!
Well busy weekend away with the family and it really showed me how exhausting kids were (not that I didn't already know that) but it definitely gives me my own ideas on discipline and stuff and all the things Peter and I will need to talk about and agree on!!!!
Rushing this at work so will write more later!! Ciao!!
Well as the title suggests I'm 12DPO and DYING to test! I just want to know either way..I'm not even sure how I feel! My temperatures are looking great and I can't help but get excited about them...but at the same time I'm petrified I'll wake up tomorrow and they'll be dropping.... so who knows! I hate temping but at the same time I feel it is required for a little while just to know I am in fact ovulating at some point after being pretty convinced I was not ovulating post D&C for 3 cycles!!
So its looking good and any 'symptoms' I've had are just utter exhaustion where I've barely been able to funciton clearly in the afternoons at all and just irritated at the smallest things! Having a few niggly feelings down there today but trying hard not to read into anything too much!
Boobs are a bit tender and definitely bigger - it appears as though my nipples stick out A LOT more than they usually do...but again... no idea if thats anything.. I really am just not reading into much this cycle..I'm tired of the let down again and again and again! I say every month I don't know how much more I can take...but to be honest.. I can take a lot more as i'll do anything I can to get that baby for myself and Peter!!
Well busy weekend away with the family and it really showed me how exhausting kids were (not that I didn't already know that) but it definitely gives me my own ideas on discipline and stuff and all the things Peter and I will need to talk about and agree on!!!!
Rushing this at work so will write more later!! Ciao!!
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