Yup my little man is 6 months and 4 days old! It's amazing just how fast the time has gone!! He had his health check last Wednesday (so the day before he turned 6 months)! My little beefcake weighed in at 8.25kg and 70cm! But he is perfectly in proportion so I'm happy about that!
It amazes me how fast they begin to learn things! He still hasn't rolled from back to tummy but today I swore he was going to do it!! Soon though I'm sure! But now on his tummy- which he loves being on- he is really trying to push up and back on to his knees! Amazing! With a bit of luck he'll be crawling in no time! He just needs to work it out! He gets up on his knees but face plants or pushes up on his arms and slides backwards! Crazy little man!!
His reflux seems to be settling WAY down which is awesome! Whilst I'm lucky it never really caused him pain, it's just been gross and well I'm glad he really only spews little possets now not so much the big spews (still happen on occasion but not as often)! But he drools SO MUCH so he's still saturated all the time! LOL!!
He seems to be back to sleeping good day sleeps and back to sleeping all night (generally through til 6.30/7) which is doing wonders for my sanity! Such a good boy!
We are obviously in a sunny period and not in a wonder week or anything so he is being an amazing baby right now and very few cries come from him!!!
Motherhood..well where do I begin! I got a new job and started part time which I enjoyed at first but now I'm bored and really there is no challenge to it! So I thought aout going back to my old job and met to discuss with them! I wanted 3 days which I wouldn't have an issue putting Ashton in care for but they refused to bend on 4 days and wanted me to go back to reception which well...a monkey could do that job! I got bored of that after 3 months when I started there when I Was 19 and had had no experience! So that was really disappointing but a real eye opener to see how little they value long term employees!! So not sure what I'm going to do but for now i'll just stick with the part time job at the physio!!
I just wish there was a great job I could do from home til I'm finished studying so I didn't have to leave Ashton! I'm no good at party plan as I'm not a natural sales person and talking in front of a group just freaks me out!!
My fissure is still giving me grief! It seemed better for a while but now its back and its painful! So will be making an appointment to see the doctor and push to have the surgery to fix it - everyone I've spoken to has said the surgery has worked wonders and well to be honest...that's what I want!!
I've also started running as a way of helping me lose weight! I'm exactly what I was pre pregancy but I've been like 6-8kg over what I'm happy with for years so I'm trying to get it off!! I started the c25k running program - you can read about it on my other blog - http://superstarrrc25k.blogspot.com/ ! I'm really hoping I can finish the program successfully!!
Monday, June 27, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Yep It's Definitely been a while!!!
I know it's been like 100 years since I've written anything - sadly life just got chaotic and I never get a chance too! But I was spurred on to look at my pg diary and felt the need to write in here!!
Ashton is now almost 6 months old and he is simply an amazing little character who makes me smile a million times a day! Something as simple as tonight in the bath he was just cracking up at me wiping a washer over his belly - a real laugh! I never get tired of hearing it!!!
He is amazing! When he isn't teething he is such a delightful baby and makes life so easy for me (As easy as it can be with a baby)! And whilst motherhood isn't without its trials I have honestly never felt more complete! I grew up saying my whole life I wanted to be a mum...that was all I aspired to be and I'm so glad I was right! I never knew how complete I feel now!
Ashton makes me a whole person! Since having him I really feel as though there is a real purpose to my life! I gave up breastfeeding after a menial 3 weeks - it was painful and more pain than I could get through no matter how many people told me it gets better! The agony made my toes curl, made me swear, made me feel such anxiety over feeding time I would literaly sit there in tears! I decided it wasn't worth it so for 2 days I cried with guilt about how I failed my baby! But he took the bottle no worries and is definitely not failing in the weight gain department! He is my big bubba! Since he started solids I decided to make up for the lack of breastfeeding and have made all his food myself! In the 2 months he's been on solids he's had maybe 1.5 jars of food that I haven't made myself- and he's having 2-3 meals a day! I love knowing that it's all fresh ingredients going into him - that being said I have no problems with jar food at all! I just really enjoy making his food!! I never thought I would enjoy it so much!! It makes me feel like I've accomplished something!!
He wakes me up in the middle of the night not with crying but by talking loudly....so I get up and am not happy about being woken only to walk in and find this smiling flapping little man who is so happy to see me how can I be angry at him? I love his smiles, I hate hearing him upset! I hate that look he gives me when he's not happy!
As I said it's not been all rainbows and lollipops! The first 12 weeks were the hardest I have ever been through physically and emotionally!! Everyone tells you how tired you are...well no one told me there'd be nights where I'd find myself in the foetal position, sobbing on the floor in my hallway because I'm getting up for the 6th time in 2 hours whilst in agony from the anal fissure that will not give me a break. NO one told me I would lie in bed bawling my eyes out because I'm trying to find sleep through the pain, I pray to make the pain stop but it doesn't happen! No one warned me of the times I would sit on the couch feeding in the middle of the night crying silent tears because I am JUST.SO.TIRED!
As horrible as it sounds I found the first few weeks so unrewarding it was hard to see the light through the darkness! I don't know how many tears were shed in those first 8 weeks! Tears because I was tired, tears because I was in pain, tears just because there were tears that needed to be shed!
IT was hard and so unrewarding...but then he smiled.. and he continued to smile..and it really makes things a lot easier to bare!!!
I have A LOT more to add but I better get cracking on deciphering through all of my diary!! I reckon I'll be able to come back on here more often now.....
Ashton is now almost 6 months old and he is simply an amazing little character who makes me smile a million times a day! Something as simple as tonight in the bath he was just cracking up at me wiping a washer over his belly - a real laugh! I never get tired of hearing it!!!
He is amazing! When he isn't teething he is such a delightful baby and makes life so easy for me (As easy as it can be with a baby)! And whilst motherhood isn't without its trials I have honestly never felt more complete! I grew up saying my whole life I wanted to be a mum...that was all I aspired to be and I'm so glad I was right! I never knew how complete I feel now!
Ashton makes me a whole person! Since having him I really feel as though there is a real purpose to my life! I gave up breastfeeding after a menial 3 weeks - it was painful and more pain than I could get through no matter how many people told me it gets better! The agony made my toes curl, made me swear, made me feel such anxiety over feeding time I would literaly sit there in tears! I decided it wasn't worth it so for 2 days I cried with guilt about how I failed my baby! But he took the bottle no worries and is definitely not failing in the weight gain department! He is my big bubba! Since he started solids I decided to make up for the lack of breastfeeding and have made all his food myself! In the 2 months he's been on solids he's had maybe 1.5 jars of food that I haven't made myself- and he's having 2-3 meals a day! I love knowing that it's all fresh ingredients going into him - that being said I have no problems with jar food at all! I just really enjoy making his food!! I never thought I would enjoy it so much!! It makes me feel like I've accomplished something!!
He wakes me up in the middle of the night not with crying but by talking loudly....so I get up and am not happy about being woken only to walk in and find this smiling flapping little man who is so happy to see me how can I be angry at him? I love his smiles, I hate hearing him upset! I hate that look he gives me when he's not happy!
As I said it's not been all rainbows and lollipops! The first 12 weeks were the hardest I have ever been through physically and emotionally!! Everyone tells you how tired you are...well no one told me there'd be nights where I'd find myself in the foetal position, sobbing on the floor in my hallway because I'm getting up for the 6th time in 2 hours whilst in agony from the anal fissure that will not give me a break. NO one told me I would lie in bed bawling my eyes out because I'm trying to find sleep through the pain, I pray to make the pain stop but it doesn't happen! No one warned me of the times I would sit on the couch feeding in the middle of the night crying silent tears because I am JUST.SO.TIRED!
As horrible as it sounds I found the first few weeks so unrewarding it was hard to see the light through the darkness! I don't know how many tears were shed in those first 8 weeks! Tears because I was tired, tears because I was in pain, tears just because there were tears that needed to be shed!
IT was hard and so unrewarding...but then he smiled.. and he continued to smile..and it really makes things a lot easier to bare!!!
I have A LOT more to add but I better get cracking on deciphering through all of my diary!! I reckon I'll be able to come back on here more often now.....
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