15w 4d

So just a blog to update where I am at!!


So as you can see I'm edging towards 16weeks! 4 months! WOW! Who'da thunk it really!! Still wouldn't know it by looking at me! I am starting to fill out now definitely but I can hold it in and still look basically as I did at the start - just with enormous boobs! hahaha I definitely haven't been trying to not put on weight! My diet has basically consisted of take away, soup, bread (and lots of it!) and LOADS of chocolate (could explain the massive breakout I had last week!!)! So definitely not watching what I eat but fortunately it's not adding on too much!!


Whilst one side of me wishes I had a belly now etc. the other side is enjoying the look on peoples faces when I tell them I am almost 16weeks! haha It's priceless really!!


So virtually everyone who needs to know and be told has found out now which has made the last week one of the most exciting as I've been able to talk about it and people have been asking questions etc. so it's really good and been really fun!! Was really surprised with how Peter's cricketr club mates took it - they were so excited and asking all sorts of questions (even about whether I want natural or drugs at birth)! I'm talking 25 year old 'blokey' guys that I just didn't expect! haha It's cute and funny and I can see they are so happy for Peter (and myself but obviously this is a guy they're known for years growing up)! So it's really cute how excited Peter gets when talking to the boys about it!


Everyone makes jokes how he won't have a life or be able to play cricket anymore coz I'll need him home with me and the baby - I don't think these people quite realise how much I value my time when he's at training and cricket! haha It gives me time to clean and spend guilt free time with the girls etc. and when bub comes along that aspect won't be much different! I'll still use that time to clean and hang out with the girls - just with Lil Reggie in tow now! haha The girls are so excited about Reggie it's defintely not considered inconvenient to anyone! Infact my girlfriends are all talking about going out and buying Port-a-Cots etc. so Reggie has somewere to sleep!! Very cute! haha

So won a pram on ebay last week! The EXACT one we had been looking at in Baby Buntings only used and only $27! I picked it up on Friday after work and it's perfect! I'm in love!!!

Besides being a bit dirty which is easy enough to clean I'm so happy with it! I took it for a test run on Saturday with my 15month old niece and managed to get through my entire shopping centre (and it was PACKED) pushing the pram with 1 hand whilst holding my 4 year old nephews hand and it steered just beautifully! and LIGHT!! She even fell asleep in the stroller which lets me know that it is comfy too!! Then I had to fold it to put it in the car in the rain and on the wet ground - managed to do it without it collapsing on the ground!! So I'm very very happy with my purchase!!

Will look at laybying our cot in the next couple of weeks! Its about $545 on a 3 month lay by so not too bad! I know it's pricey but we fell in love and it's the only thing we are buying brand new! Mum doesn't agree to us spending that much but at the end of the day it's our decision and it's not like we can't afford it!

Fairly sure I could physically feel Reggie yesterday! I kow my uterus has moved up and is now sitting under my belly button! But I was laying down and my tummy was flat and I could feel something solid then after pushing a bit it moved over and I know it was definitely not an air pocket! So that was exciting! I've felt little flutters still but they still aren't very strong..I'm just impatient!!

Moved my scan date forward a week as well as I just couldn't wait! So there is 4 weeks EXACTLY til my scan when a) I get to see Reggie again and see that all is well and b) find out if Reggie is a boy or a girl! I'm scared but excited about that bit as I've made it no secret my desire for a girl BUT in saying that I love my nephews to absolute pieces so I can't imagine I will have less love for my own child! At the end of the day we want a healthy happy bouncing baby and will be happy with whatever we are blessed with be it son or daughter!!!

Well still waiting for my sister to push her baby girl out! She's now a week overdue and will be induced on Thursday if no baby by then! The wait is killing us all as we are just so excited to meet our new little niece and Reggie's cousin! So we just keep waiting and hoping she decides to grace us with her presence soon!!

Wow I can ramble! Good work if you got this far! To my girls in SWB - my phone is being stupid and just simply will not let me in AND to top it off the internet at home is down so I can't get on! Hope this updates you with where I'm at! I can read wall posts when you do them - I just can't comment!!!

15 WEEKS!

Just a quick one - 15 Weeks today! YAY!!

Things going well, moving down to 4 days a week from 5 to give me a rest as the tiredness is still kicking my butt!! Financially won't make too much of a difference as I've been taking so much sick leave without pay anyways!!!

Feeling really morning sick this morning! Like the same as I did in week 9ish! It's crazy but still nice to have that bit of reassurance!

Pretty sure I'm feeling Reggie a lot more now! It's awesome! I'm loving it - and more and more people are finding out which makes it feel real too!!

No news on my sis yet! She was due on Monday...so now we just wait to meet this little princess!!!

The Sound of Joy!

Had another ob appointment with Dr. John this morning. Just a routine check up! Nothing too exciting! Was really hoping he'd do another scan as he usually does but not so lucky this time! BUT he did put the doppler against my belly and within mini seconds the heart was pounding away! Sooooo reassuring! Especially that it didn't take him long at all to find it. I was sooo happy to hear it! Just as happy as if I'd had a scan or something!

Also had my midwife appointment yesterday so I'm officially booked in to the hospital! YAY! It's all happening now which is just so exciting! I'll be 15 weeks in 2 days and I just love it!

Symptoms are still around, nice and headachey for the last 2 days which I'm trying to just move on from - drinking water etc. I don't get headaches very often ever so I don't cope well with them. Still feeling nauseas from time to time too. But as people have said it comes when I'm tired (which is often) or hungry (I am still learning to eat regularly).

I'm also in this annoying stage of not being pregnant looking, I've by no means 'popped' or even put on weight - maybe only like a kg or 2 - but obviously I'm filling out. It's annoying because My pants are snug and uncomfy! So the other week I went and bought a pair of jeans a size too big (also have a bit of stretch to them) and they're so comfy but I'm soooo over wearing them! I have them or trackies which well aren't socially acceptable as going out attire unfortunately! haha (especially since I got bleach all down them!!) So I went and bought a coupld of maternity tops to wear with leggings! I was happy to not get maternity but being tall I struggle to find tops that are long enough to wear with leggings etc. so managed to get my first maternity tops!

Have had a nice couple of days with Peter which I think we really needed. Between busy schedules and just being plain tired we've barely had 5 minutes together to even just catch up! So I took Friday off and we had a lovely day together - went out for lunch etc. then spent Saturday night together - indian for dinner and a movie at home and Sunday we went out baby shopping! It was very exciting! We've picked the pram and cot we like! Haven't purchased them yet! I'm pretty sure we can get the pram for a fraction of the price off ebay! The cot was about $600 but it was amazing and we both just fell in love with it! So I'm happy that we've finally spent some time on the baby thing!!

So things are progressing nicely which is really exciting!

MY sister is due to pop any day now and I'm so excited to meet my new niece when she decides to come in to this world!!!!

Ch-Ch-Ch-CHANGES!!!

Afternoon all! Well I have been a bit slack in the old updating department! Sorry about that! I read along to everyones then by the time I get to mine I have to go!! Silly - I should do mine first!

Well I'm currently sitting nicely at 13w6d and can't believe it's 14 weeks tomorrow! Just pure insanity!! Still having 'off' moments but generally speaking I'm feeling good! Just tired! Little Reggie really doesn't like stinky smells though! hehe So I'm learning not to walk into a room with potentially bad smells (ie. the toilet) and inhale deeply! haha Though sometimes I am caught unawares and this leaves me gagging over the toilet bowl!This has always happened on an empty stomach so there's usually nothing to actually come up!

Went away with the girls for the weekend! Was really nice to get away and do nothing! They all got absolutely plastered and I stayed sober and to be honest - it really wasn't that bad! I knew that my not drinking was for the most perfect reason in the world and that was enough for me! It was hilarious watching them actually and whilst it would have been considered annoying I was choosing not to judge as I would be exactly the same if I could! haha But it was nice to get away all the same!

Peter told his dad last night. Now his mum hasn't been in the picture since he was 9 so telling his dad was a big deal as he really values and respects his dad's opinions and was sooo worried what he would think. He was stressed out thinking his dad wouldn't be happy as we aren't married, and we live with my parents (in our own unit) etc. whilst we save for our own home etc. But turns out his dad could not be any happier! He said there were tears from both of them and he can't wait to be a Grandad - and that he thought his boys would never get their act together! hehe So I am soooo relieved for Peter's sake that things turned out so well!!! So I think Peter can start getting excited now!

Our little SWB group has made a few changes which I'm not sure if they are good or bad but a few of the ttc girls left without so much as a word which really impacted how people were feeling! Most people took it personally. I understand that it can be soooo hard to deal with other people being pregnant but I don't think leaving without a word was right. We would've understood if they'd said it was getting a bit much. But in saying that, it has felt as though they met up in real life and just decided they simply didn't need us in their lives anymore. Which sucks but again, nothing I can do about it! The remaining girls are amazing and whether ttc or pregnant we have so much to talk about that has nothing to do with babies!! No more eggshells or anything...it's really refreshing and is starting to feel like when the group began!!!

So a lot is changing in life, people are having babies, friends are buying houses, friends are changing careers...it's weird when we get to this stage in life where we are actually growing up! We talk about money like we live in the real world - " I can't now, I have a family to think of" or "I have a mortgage so no can do" it's a strange and exciting time of our lives we are embarking on!!!

ELATION and JOY!

Well I don't even know where to begin! I'm so floating on cloud 9 right now! Had our scan today and in there is our perfect little baby! IT was just such a joyous feeling to watch I didn't even realise I had tears rolling down my cheeks til the end I was in such awe of this beautiful little being inside of me!

The whole time I was watching I felt like I was watching my daughter so I wonder how right that little feeling is! Bubs was so well behaved at first, just lying back with it's feet crossed (you can see on the left hand side of the pick facing us is the bottom of the foot) and my first thought 'it's laying exactly how I do'! It was weird... I wonder if they pick that up! haha After being poked and prodded for a while though they obviously decided enough was enough and started bouncing around - pushing off with it's feet! We managed to get a wave and saw 10 tiny nubby fingers an 10 tiny nubby toes! It was just amazing to see! Bubs had had enough by the end though and rolled away for a sleep! It was very cute!

So everything is looking really good and just couldn't look any better! Even though I didn't have the blood test she asked me if I wanted her to measure the fluid behind babies neck to check for down syndrome risk. I was find with that so she measured and it was 1.7mm or something and she said that compared with my age is definitely no risk factor. I wasn't worried (hence declining the test) but it's nice to know either way! My placenta is sitting at the back which means bubs is in the front making me more and more convinced that it was bubs I was feeling moving the other night! I know it's early but the reason they say first timers don't often feel it til later is because they don't know what they're looking for. I've spend a lot of time focusing on feeling and know it was definitely not bubbles of gas or anything!! It was awesome!

So bubs measuring just over 6cm which is pretty normal at this stage and a heartbeat of 159bpm! If I were to go by all the old wives tales (fast heartbeat, craving chocolate and sweets etc) then all signs point to girl! haha Maybe that's just grasping at straws and wishful thinking!

I had the afternoon off and spent it with my eldest sister who's kids are 3 and 14months! Was nice, we just went down to the park and I had a glimpse of what life will be like next year. My with bubs, my other sis with her bubs (who is due any day now) whilst her older 2 are at school, another friend who has a girl 13months and just found out she is due for another in Feb and my cousin who's son is 4! It's going to be awesome!! I'm so looking forward to this next chapter of my life and this little baby being soo unbelievably spoilt not just by my family but by my BFF's who will spoil this baby like crazy!! Lucky thing!!!

Freak outs!!

So annoying I wrote this big long post and it didn't work!!

Basically yesterday was just having a MAJOY freak out session..like I'm talking I was angry and wanting to burst in to tears at the drop of a hat! I was angry at Peter for coming home late, angry for him sleeping in when I had things I wanted to do...just angry! Angry that my dad wanted to borrow my usb power adapter so he can charge the GPS when he goes away for work... all of these things which aren't big deals I was just so angry..then I just wanted to cry about it! Really it's coz I felt great and was totally stressing that things aren't right!

I calmed down and bit and once I started actually moving for the day found I started to feel pretty much hungover so that made me feel better!! I was just over tired from not getting to bed til 3am and not sleeping well coz Peter was out til really late with mates he hadn't been out with before! If I've found one big change with the hormone business its the anxiety I feel if Peter isn't where he is supposed to be or uncontactable - all for legitimate reasons but I freak out! I try so hard not to become this crazy texting woman and think to myself 'he'll be home soon' etc. and it always works out! It's really horrible! I've never really suffered from anxiety (except I have this odd feeling come over me when my BFF who is epileptic has a seizure even if we are no where near each other..it's weird!) and it's something I'm not enjoying! But speaking to a few other people who have had babies and it seems perfectly normal!!

I also felt like the Grinch who stole Christmas yesterday when talking to Peter. I just want him to start realising that life as we know it will change when this baby comes along and we all have to make sacrifices. It's not just financially but he plays sport all year round! Cricket and footy, which is fine but come footy season next year I may be working part time on a Saturday and will need him to look after baby, or he may need to pick up extra hours and can't play footy. So then he got in a sulk and started saying he'll just give up everything! It was sooo frustrating because it so was not what I was saying - or that it will even happen! I'd never ask him to give up his cricket as that is his number 1 but hes only been back at footy for this year! We all have to make sacrifices and I can't depend on my mum to look after baby EVERY saturday if I have to work or if we are struggling to keep our heads afloat financially! I felt horrible but I guess he just needs to realise these things in his own time!

Was tucked up in bed by 9 last night after 2 late nights in a row I was sooo tired! Felt a bit gross this morning - still just hungover feeling - but had something to eat and feel ok!

One new development though, I was laying on the couch last night and felt the oddest sensation down where baby is! It was like this stuttering type feeling like someone wasjust touching my tummy, I felt it twice and it was bubbles or anything...it was so weird!! Some people have said that's what I'm looking out for and I really really really hope that it was baby!

Scan in like 24 hours and I am soooo anxious and keen and nervous! I just need to see this baby and really believe that I have made it this far! I just feel like it will be full steam ahead after tomorrows scan! Will be starting to clean out the nursery and start making it like a real nursery - though I'll be waiting til we find out what it is to paint..maybe.... and just getting it all ready! It's going to be so amazing...but I still have a nagging feeling that is stressing me out!!!

I hope and pray that everything is as it should and this amazing little life inside of me is right where they belong!!

12 WEEKS....excited?

Yep the elusive 12 weeks is upon yet I fail to feel that super excitement that I imagined I would feel.. I guess it's because until I see this amazing little bubba is all safe and sounds I will continue to worry!


I was supposed to have a scan this morning but Peter just simply couldn't get the time off work. I was so upset when he told me on Tuesday night I just burst into silent tears. Silent because I didn't want him to know how upset I was as he already felt bad about me having to change the scan date! So fortunately I managed to sneak those tears by him and simply told him last night that I was really upset but I knew it wasn't anything he could help and that it was just how I was feeling!


I want to yell and scream from the rooftops and not keep it a secret any longer but unfortunately I won't be doing that until at least Tuesday now when my next scan is! I suppose it's good in a way as the longer it is the more formed bubba will appear! I don't know why I am stressing so much as I only saw bubba just over a week ago and everything was fine! I guess I'll remain paranoid until I can feel bubba moving inside me. Even then I'll continue to over analyse every little niggle!


Took yesterday off work! The tiredness is still taking it's toll..guess it could also be diet related as I haven't exactly had the most nutritional diet the last little while so maybe I am lacking in something... will hae to start eating better!! I woke up yesterday, emailed work to say I won't be coming in, fell asleep from 8 - 10 got up at 11 for an hour then slept again from 12 -3! And still managed to fall asleep easily and sleep all night with the exception of a toilet break!


Tummy has ever so slightly started to fill out. I can really only notice because I've analysed my body so much over the years. I always have this little bump around the belly button region that no matter how much I workout or eat well or whatever I always have it so I just put it down to my shape! Well I've said since the start that once that little bump starts disappearing I'll know the lower part of my belly is coming out and low and behold I finally have the stomach I've always wanted because it's flat now...but I know it won't last long and that is fine by me! Really need to get on to the bio oil/cocoa butter bandwagon actually and even though you can't stop stretchmarks I'd like to do what I can to at least minimise them! One sister got them quite badly and the other not so much! So genetics has already left me confused! Though the sister that has them is quite fair skinned and the other quite dark..I'm somewhere inbetween probably more on the darker side so FX I am lucky!


Booked in for my antenatal classes the other day! Was very excited but once again apprehensive and hope I haven't jinxed anything! Start on the 6th October which I'll be about 30 weeks! There's a class in a few weeks I'll be attending which is more for first timers so that will be exciting!!


Little bit of seediness is still lingering which is good - it lets me feel a bit more at ease....just one more week I reckon and I think I'll be able to really start enjoying this pregnancy for everything it's worth! Though then the countdown will be on til we can find out if I'm carrying a little boy or a little girl! Ah, the suspense!!!

11w 5d - Dreams Dreams Dreams!

 As the title states I am edging sooo close to that elusive 12 week mark! Though I won't feel relaxed until my scan on Thursday and see bubba in there all happy and healthy!! At the moment I'm feeling confident that everything is ok..but still not 100%!!

Symptoms are all still here - massively tired, as in I struggle through each and every day to stay away, come home, nap for half an hour then am still tucked up in bed asleep by 9.30 (And for someone who is soo used to going to bed at like 11 this is crazy!!) I managed to make it til 10 last night as Peter was working late but the later I stay up the sicker I start to feel so it's just not worth it!!

I still have bouts of MS! I feel off pretty much all day and had another spewy moment last Friday which was good! I haven't felt this bad since about week 6 so it's comforting to know!!

Still haven't 'popped' or even filled out - but I think that has to do with the whole 'retroverted uterus' thing so when that flips forward it'll be a little bit more noticeable! I'm happy with not showing at the moment though! Scary to think I can almost start telling people! It's going to be so weird to not have this secret loomin above me when I talk to people other than my family/BFF's!!

The newest symptom of hormones though is the DREAMS!!! Man they are soooo weird! They spin me out every morning! One example is I had a dream with my nephew X who is just 3 and he looked exactly as he does in real life only he had this massive black beard! He's a cute little blondy so this was bizarre! No one else thought it was weird though!! So strange! I can barely remember others but they are just so weird and vivid!!

Last night though I had the most wonderful dream - I dreamt that I gave birth to a baby boy. But this boy was sooo tiny! I don't think I was full term - though he was healthy! Just so small! And at first I was disappointed that it was a boy, but then I realised this tiny, helpless, amazing little button of perfection was mine and fell in love! Then it just got weird coz I had plans for that night so went bowling and to the movies the same night as giving birth.... weird! But the baby part was just... lovely!! Now I figure this has 1 of 2 meanings...

1) That this bubba in here is a boy...and just giving me the heads up (though we will be finding out). I know if I have a boy I will love it into a million pieces no less than I would a girl, though I just need the time to get my head around it. Selfish as that may be it's the truth! At the end of the day I just want a happy, healthy child!!

OR

2) The due date of my angel baby just passed Sunday/Monday (30th/31st May 2010) so maybe it was my angel baby in my dream and I did get to meet him after all. I never found out the gender as I was so early along and took comfort at the time the bubba hadn't made it past a cluster of cells yet! So that option saddened me but it was also a nice feeling too!

So time will tell what gender this little bubba will be but either way it was such a magical dream! I hope I get plenty more like that and less of the far too bizarro ones!!!