Yup my little man is 6 months and 4 days old! It's amazing just how fast the time has gone!! He had his health check last Wednesday (so the day before he turned 6 months)! My little beefcake weighed in at 8.25kg and 70cm! But he is perfectly in proportion so I'm happy about that!
It amazes me how fast they begin to learn things! He still hasn't rolled from back to tummy but today I swore he was going to do it!! Soon though I'm sure! But now on his tummy- which he loves being on- he is really trying to push up and back on to his knees! Amazing! With a bit of luck he'll be crawling in no time! He just needs to work it out! He gets up on his knees but face plants or pushes up on his arms and slides backwards! Crazy little man!!
His reflux seems to be settling WAY down which is awesome! Whilst I'm lucky it never really caused him pain, it's just been gross and well I'm glad he really only spews little possets now not so much the big spews (still happen on occasion but not as often)! But he drools SO MUCH so he's still saturated all the time! LOL!!
He seems to be back to sleeping good day sleeps and back to sleeping all night (generally through til 6.30/7) which is doing wonders for my sanity! Such a good boy!
We are obviously in a sunny period and not in a wonder week or anything so he is being an amazing baby right now and very few cries come from him!!!
Motherhood..well where do I begin! I got a new job and started part time which I enjoyed at first but now I'm bored and really there is no challenge to it! So I thought aout going back to my old job and met to discuss with them! I wanted 3 days which I wouldn't have an issue putting Ashton in care for but they refused to bend on 4 days and wanted me to go back to reception which well...a monkey could do that job! I got bored of that after 3 months when I started there when I Was 19 and had had no experience! So that was really disappointing but a real eye opener to see how little they value long term employees!! So not sure what I'm going to do but for now i'll just stick with the part time job at the physio!!
I just wish there was a great job I could do from home til I'm finished studying so I didn't have to leave Ashton! I'm no good at party plan as I'm not a natural sales person and talking in front of a group just freaks me out!!
My fissure is still giving me grief! It seemed better for a while but now its back and its painful! So will be making an appointment to see the doctor and push to have the surgery to fix it - everyone I've spoken to has said the surgery has worked wonders and well to be honest...that's what I want!!
I've also started running as a way of helping me lose weight! I'm exactly what I was pre pregancy but I've been like 6-8kg over what I'm happy with for years so I'm trying to get it off!! I started the c25k running program - you can read about it on my other blog - http://superstarrrc25k.blogspot.com/ ! I'm really hoping I can finish the program successfully!!
Monday, June 27, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Yep It's Definitely been a while!!!
I know it's been like 100 years since I've written anything - sadly life just got chaotic and I never get a chance too! But I was spurred on to look at my pg diary and felt the need to write in here!!
Ashton is now almost 6 months old and he is simply an amazing little character who makes me smile a million times a day! Something as simple as tonight in the bath he was just cracking up at me wiping a washer over his belly - a real laugh! I never get tired of hearing it!!!
He is amazing! When he isn't teething he is such a delightful baby and makes life so easy for me (As easy as it can be with a baby)! And whilst motherhood isn't without its trials I have honestly never felt more complete! I grew up saying my whole life I wanted to be a mum...that was all I aspired to be and I'm so glad I was right! I never knew how complete I feel now!
Ashton makes me a whole person! Since having him I really feel as though there is a real purpose to my life! I gave up breastfeeding after a menial 3 weeks - it was painful and more pain than I could get through no matter how many people told me it gets better! The agony made my toes curl, made me swear, made me feel such anxiety over feeding time I would literaly sit there in tears! I decided it wasn't worth it so for 2 days I cried with guilt about how I failed my baby! But he took the bottle no worries and is definitely not failing in the weight gain department! He is my big bubba! Since he started solids I decided to make up for the lack of breastfeeding and have made all his food myself! In the 2 months he's been on solids he's had maybe 1.5 jars of food that I haven't made myself- and he's having 2-3 meals a day! I love knowing that it's all fresh ingredients going into him - that being said I have no problems with jar food at all! I just really enjoy making his food!! I never thought I would enjoy it so much!! It makes me feel like I've accomplished something!!
He wakes me up in the middle of the night not with crying but by talking loudly....so I get up and am not happy about being woken only to walk in and find this smiling flapping little man who is so happy to see me how can I be angry at him? I love his smiles, I hate hearing him upset! I hate that look he gives me when he's not happy!
As I said it's not been all rainbows and lollipops! The first 12 weeks were the hardest I have ever been through physically and emotionally!! Everyone tells you how tired you are...well no one told me there'd be nights where I'd find myself in the foetal position, sobbing on the floor in my hallway because I'm getting up for the 6th time in 2 hours whilst in agony from the anal fissure that will not give me a break. NO one told me I would lie in bed bawling my eyes out because I'm trying to find sleep through the pain, I pray to make the pain stop but it doesn't happen! No one warned me of the times I would sit on the couch feeding in the middle of the night crying silent tears because I am JUST.SO.TIRED!
As horrible as it sounds I found the first few weeks so unrewarding it was hard to see the light through the darkness! I don't know how many tears were shed in those first 8 weeks! Tears because I was tired, tears because I was in pain, tears just because there were tears that needed to be shed!
IT was hard and so unrewarding...but then he smiled.. and he continued to smile..and it really makes things a lot easier to bare!!!
I have A LOT more to add but I better get cracking on deciphering through all of my diary!! I reckon I'll be able to come back on here more often now.....
Ashton is now almost 6 months old and he is simply an amazing little character who makes me smile a million times a day! Something as simple as tonight in the bath he was just cracking up at me wiping a washer over his belly - a real laugh! I never get tired of hearing it!!!
He is amazing! When he isn't teething he is such a delightful baby and makes life so easy for me (As easy as it can be with a baby)! And whilst motherhood isn't without its trials I have honestly never felt more complete! I grew up saying my whole life I wanted to be a mum...that was all I aspired to be and I'm so glad I was right! I never knew how complete I feel now!
Ashton makes me a whole person! Since having him I really feel as though there is a real purpose to my life! I gave up breastfeeding after a menial 3 weeks - it was painful and more pain than I could get through no matter how many people told me it gets better! The agony made my toes curl, made me swear, made me feel such anxiety over feeding time I would literaly sit there in tears! I decided it wasn't worth it so for 2 days I cried with guilt about how I failed my baby! But he took the bottle no worries and is definitely not failing in the weight gain department! He is my big bubba! Since he started solids I decided to make up for the lack of breastfeeding and have made all his food myself! In the 2 months he's been on solids he's had maybe 1.5 jars of food that I haven't made myself- and he's having 2-3 meals a day! I love knowing that it's all fresh ingredients going into him - that being said I have no problems with jar food at all! I just really enjoy making his food!! I never thought I would enjoy it so much!! It makes me feel like I've accomplished something!!
He wakes me up in the middle of the night not with crying but by talking loudly....so I get up and am not happy about being woken only to walk in and find this smiling flapping little man who is so happy to see me how can I be angry at him? I love his smiles, I hate hearing him upset! I hate that look he gives me when he's not happy!
As I said it's not been all rainbows and lollipops! The first 12 weeks were the hardest I have ever been through physically and emotionally!! Everyone tells you how tired you are...well no one told me there'd be nights where I'd find myself in the foetal position, sobbing on the floor in my hallway because I'm getting up for the 6th time in 2 hours whilst in agony from the anal fissure that will not give me a break. NO one told me I would lie in bed bawling my eyes out because I'm trying to find sleep through the pain, I pray to make the pain stop but it doesn't happen! No one warned me of the times I would sit on the couch feeding in the middle of the night crying silent tears because I am JUST.SO.TIRED!
As horrible as it sounds I found the first few weeks so unrewarding it was hard to see the light through the darkness! I don't know how many tears were shed in those first 8 weeks! Tears because I was tired, tears because I was in pain, tears just because there were tears that needed to be shed!
IT was hard and so unrewarding...but then he smiled.. and he continued to smile..and it really makes things a lot easier to bare!!!
I have A LOT more to add but I better get cracking on deciphering through all of my diary!! I reckon I'll be able to come back on here more often now.....
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
8 weeks...just about!
Ok I know I know...its been sooo long since I last wrote but now everything is settling down I can finally get on top of it all!
Ashton is just amazing! He will be 8 weeks in 2 days and is thriving! He gets weighed and measured tomorrow but I think he is hovering around the 6kg mark! He is a boofa! He seems to be a sensitive little man and he is finally smiling on a regular basis and his smile lights up my life! He really truly has changed so many lives in his tiny 8 weeks!
Here are just a couple of pics that were taken at 6 weeks..wow I can't believe that was 2 weeks ago already!! Time really does fly!
I'll probably keep this one a brief as I can because I will make it a gradual process to get up to date and stay on top of it all!
On a healing front it seems to never ever ever ever end!! After the million stitches I was in pain and uncomfortable..this gradually subsided but I was left with this dull achey pressure pulling type pain in the front and a much sharper more ouwy type pain in the back!
I had an asshole of a GP at 6 weeks basically dismiss me and was soo rude I was left in tears - like sobbing from the afternoon right through til the night! Then Dr John at 7 weeks tell me it was all scar related and left it at that! Ok thats fine and the front pain from the scar seems to be very minimal now.. but I'm still left with this pain which I had been convinced it was a hemorrhoid! Fast forward to today...3rd doctor to take a look (and I tell you what - I am so over people in that area) he finally notices I have an 'anal fissure'! So I will pick up my cream stuff tomorrow and start taking lots of salt baths (again) in the hope it heals and I don't need surgery! I really want to start feeling normal again!!
So today is Peter and my 2 year anniversary...so much has happened in that time it's insane and we couldn't be happier! Ashton has just slot right in and become such a good part of our lives! I'm happy to say we work as a team - I am slowly learning to get Peter to do stuff when I am home rather than just taking it all on! He is great and will do what I ask and I'm more than comfortable leaving the 2 of them alone but when I am home I seem to do it all...total unnecessary! So we are going great guns!
Had a wonderful catch up with ladies from my antenatal class today! I am very happy about this as my mother group didn't really work out so I am still surrounded by a bunch of wonderful ladies whose bubs are all relatively the same age! It was a lot of fun and I can see some great friendships being formed!
I also started the practical component of my Personal Training course on Friday night! I loved it and can't wait to keep going! I was highly motivated and even just about finished my first assignment! YAY! So it's going really well!!!
I currently feel very rich in life! Ashton has brought out more confidence in me - I feel with him in my arms a conversation starter so I am more inclined to talk to people and not be so shy! I also feel more relaxed in life abnd myself so I am happy to enrich my life with more and more people!! I have a fantastic circle of people around me (in real life and online!) and with that I could not be happier!
Ashton is just amazing! He will be 8 weeks in 2 days and is thriving! He gets weighed and measured tomorrow but I think he is hovering around the 6kg mark! He is a boofa! He seems to be a sensitive little man and he is finally smiling on a regular basis and his smile lights up my life! He really truly has changed so many lives in his tiny 8 weeks!
I'll probably keep this one a brief as I can because I will make it a gradual process to get up to date and stay on top of it all!
On a healing front it seems to never ever ever ever end!! After the million stitches I was in pain and uncomfortable..this gradually subsided but I was left with this dull achey pressure pulling type pain in the front and a much sharper more ouwy type pain in the back!
I had an asshole of a GP at 6 weeks basically dismiss me and was soo rude I was left in tears - like sobbing from the afternoon right through til the night! Then Dr John at 7 weeks tell me it was all scar related and left it at that! Ok thats fine and the front pain from the scar seems to be very minimal now.. but I'm still left with this pain which I had been convinced it was a hemorrhoid! Fast forward to today...3rd doctor to take a look (and I tell you what - I am so over people in that area) he finally notices I have an 'anal fissure'! So I will pick up my cream stuff tomorrow and start taking lots of salt baths (again) in the hope it heals and I don't need surgery! I really want to start feeling normal again!!
So today is Peter and my 2 year anniversary...so much has happened in that time it's insane and we couldn't be happier! Ashton has just slot right in and become such a good part of our lives! I'm happy to say we work as a team - I am slowly learning to get Peter to do stuff when I am home rather than just taking it all on! He is great and will do what I ask and I'm more than comfortable leaving the 2 of them alone but when I am home I seem to do it all...total unnecessary! So we are going great guns!
Had a wonderful catch up with ladies from my antenatal class today! I am very happy about this as my mother group didn't really work out so I am still surrounded by a bunch of wonderful ladies whose bubs are all relatively the same age! It was a lot of fun and I can see some great friendships being formed!
I also started the practical component of my Personal Training course on Friday night! I loved it and can't wait to keep going! I was highly motivated and even just about finished my first assignment! YAY! So it's going really well!!!
I currently feel very rich in life! Ashton has brought out more confidence in me - I feel with him in my arms a conversation starter so I am more inclined to talk to people and not be so shy! I also feel more relaxed in life abnd myself so I am happy to enrich my life with more and more people!! I have a fantastic circle of people around me (in real life and online!) and with that I could not be happier!
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Mummyhood
I know I know I am terribly slack at updating but I do think about this blog often! But one thing I can tell you and it probably seems really naive but newborns are really time consuming! It's amazing but I just didn't realise how much time can be spent doing nothing but sitting on the couch with a newborn!! haha
Ok so trying to think back to my last post - that was the labour and ouchies!!
So I apologise if I repeat anything from the last post! But basically labour ended and my legs were totally dead from the epi so they let me stay in the delivery ward for a few hours after Ashton was born. My sisters and DP's dad also came and visited me whilst I was in there which was lovely but I could barely keep my eyes open and all I wanted to do was close them!
Eventually everyone went home and they decided I was able to be moved to the Maternity ward - by wheelchair! LOL! Weirdest feeling ever not being able to move my legs AT ALL! So I got to my room just after midnight! DP left not too long after that and I was left alone with this new baby for the first time. It's quite a surreal feeling! He was sleeping so I just stared at him a while and then went to sleep!
First night was ok - fed him and slept! Waking up the next morning was awesome because he was real! He was still there! I had a good time in hospital! The midwives were all lovely and never made me feel uncomfortable - despite having to do awesome things like have my catheter removed, then because I had a catheter they needed to monitor my wee for the day to make sure I did '3 big wees'! So I'd go to the toilet then have to buzz a midwife so they could see how much I had done in this measuring cup thing! AWESOME! haha They are right - dignity gets left at the door and does not get collected on the way out! haha But I didn't have any issues there and Ashton was sleeping like a champ!
So Christmas morning Ashton got his discharge check up at about 7.30am and everything was great - he was weighing 3660g so he hadn't lost too much weight. We then had to wait for the actual Dr to come and confirm everything and then we could leave....so we waited...and waited... until FINALLY at 11.00 the Dr came in and we could leave! We raced home and got ourselves ready and out the door to christmas lunch at my sisters! Ashton was such a legend and slept in the bassinet smack bang in the middle of the lounge room the WHOLE time! It was great! There was so much noise and chaos going on and he just slept...and slept! So I was hoping this was the beginning of a fantastic sleeping relationship....
So I have to run for now and I will eventually get up to date but for now snippets is what we get!
Few short things -
Everytime we leave the house we come home with a new present for Ashton - this is still continuing on nearly 4 weeks later! He really is a loved loved little boy.
Family can not stop cuddling him - FIL especially! I've never seen so much love and adoration in someone's eyes than when Ashton is being cuddled by GRandad! IT's amazing! They will have a special bond forever!
Note with boys - when they say 'keep it pointed down' they mean STRAIGHT DOWN! We have had several amazing tricks with him weeing out the side of his nappy!! LOL
Babies are tiring and time consuming...but then they stare at you, or give you a smile (windy or not) or just look so damn cute whilst they are sleeping it totally makes up for all of that!!
Ok well will come back soon to update!!!
xoxoo
Ok so trying to think back to my last post - that was the labour and ouchies!!
So I apologise if I repeat anything from the last post! But basically labour ended and my legs were totally dead from the epi so they let me stay in the delivery ward for a few hours after Ashton was born. My sisters and DP's dad also came and visited me whilst I was in there which was lovely but I could barely keep my eyes open and all I wanted to do was close them!
Eventually everyone went home and they decided I was able to be moved to the Maternity ward - by wheelchair! LOL! Weirdest feeling ever not being able to move my legs AT ALL! So I got to my room just after midnight! DP left not too long after that and I was left alone with this new baby for the first time. It's quite a surreal feeling! He was sleeping so I just stared at him a while and then went to sleep!
First night was ok - fed him and slept! Waking up the next morning was awesome because he was real! He was still there! I had a good time in hospital! The midwives were all lovely and never made me feel uncomfortable - despite having to do awesome things like have my catheter removed, then because I had a catheter they needed to monitor my wee for the day to make sure I did '3 big wees'! So I'd go to the toilet then have to buzz a midwife so they could see how much I had done in this measuring cup thing! AWESOME! haha They are right - dignity gets left at the door and does not get collected on the way out! haha But I didn't have any issues there and Ashton was sleeping like a champ!
So Christmas morning Ashton got his discharge check up at about 7.30am and everything was great - he was weighing 3660g so he hadn't lost too much weight. We then had to wait for the actual Dr to come and confirm everything and then we could leave....so we waited...and waited... until FINALLY at 11.00 the Dr came in and we could leave! We raced home and got ourselves ready and out the door to christmas lunch at my sisters! Ashton was such a legend and slept in the bassinet smack bang in the middle of the lounge room the WHOLE time! It was great! There was so much noise and chaos going on and he just slept...and slept! So I was hoping this was the beginning of a fantastic sleeping relationship....
So I have to run for now and I will eventually get up to date but for now snippets is what we get!
Few short things -
Everytime we leave the house we come home with a new present for Ashton - this is still continuing on nearly 4 weeks later! He really is a loved loved little boy.
Family can not stop cuddling him - FIL especially! I've never seen so much love and adoration in someone's eyes than when Ashton is being cuddled by GRandad! IT's amazing! They will have a special bond forever!
Note with boys - when they say 'keep it pointed down' they mean STRAIGHT DOWN! We have had several amazing tricks with him weeing out the side of his nappy!! LOL
Babies are tiring and time consuming...but then they stare at you, or give you a smile (windy or not) or just look so damn cute whilst they are sleeping it totally makes up for all of that!!
Ok well will come back soon to update!!!
xoxoo
Sunday, January 2, 2011
The Eagle has Landed!
So apologies first up for being sooo long between updates!! Baby Ashton has arrived and with Christmas, my birthday and having Peter home I just haven't had the chance to jump on properly!!
Ok so hopefully I can get my birth story in before Peter needs the computer then I can come on and update the rest!
So where to start:
To begin with I had 2 stretch and sweeps in an attempt to get labour started. The first one I started losing my plug but not much else then the second one when I was 4 days past my due date I feel really kicked things off!! It felt a lot more uncomfy and I felt she really gave it a good sweep!
So that was on the Monday! Wednesday morning I woke up at 6am with what was definitely contractions. They were stronger than BH but not getting any stronger or closer together! They remained 6-8 minutes apart the whooolllee day!! IT was frustrating because I spent the whole day wondering if it was going to go forward or fizzle out into nothing! I'd been booked in for an induction on Monday the 27th but I really wanted bubba out before xmas!!
I woke up at about 2am on Thursday 23/12 with much stronger pains but tried to get some more sleep! 4am I woke up in much more pain and they were coming on about 4-5 minutes apart! I got up, had some panadol and a heat pack. No luck...it still hurt so I jumped in the shower and still no luck!! It hurt!! When they say you;ll definitely know the difference between BH and the real deal they aren't kidding!!
Woke mum and Peter up to say it's time to go to the hospital! By this stage I could barely walk through the contractions and would just have to stand bent over on the spot stamping my foot on the floor!!
Got to the hospital at about 6am. They put the monitor on me, and did an internal at about 8am - still only 1cm dialated!! I was not impressed as I was in a lot of pain!! They decided to send me home but as I had an appointment booked with the midwife for 9.30 that morning they got me in early! They wanted to do a fluid check to make sure all was good around the baby!! So during the scan I had 3 morevery painful contractions! The midwife thought she should probably do another internal to check before sending me home so this time only an hour later I was 3cm! YAY things were moving!! But I still went home with some panadeine forte and some sleeping tablets!
Got home about 9.30am hopped straight into bed...this lasted an hour until the pain was UNBEARABLE!! So back in the car we went! Got to the hospital and back into the delivery suite where the midwife suggested I have a bath which soothed the pain for a little while! Was nice and peaceful just lying in there with DP sitting next to me! But after 45 minutes (which I thought was only 15 minutes) the contractions were too painful and I had to get out! So back to the room we go and I'm asking for the gas!! Again...unless you timed it right didn't do much as it takes a bit to kick in! Plus it made me want to throw up so that was horrible!! I needed something stronger - there was no way I could imagine walking through them or anything like they suggest! The pain was all in my back and even being on all fours it HURT!!!!!
I was the loudest on the ward by far but I just didn't care! I just wanted the pain to stop!! So I got the pethidine (Slowly working my way through each level of painkiller!!) But again.... the pain was ridiculous!! Until eventually I just yelled out wanting an epidural! I have no idea what time it was as time has no meaning by this stage!!
So they moved me into another room and gave me the epidural! I was so out of it by this stage I could barely hold my head up! Peter was holding me still but unfortunately the sight of the needle made him queasie so the dr's suggested he lie down for a little while!! As soon as that epi was in I was a whole new person!! I managed to get some sleep and then had a sense of humour about it all!!
Eventually the midwife broke my waters for me and when feeling for the head let me know he had quite a bit of hair!! hehe
So the time came when she decided it was time to push! They turned down the epi so I could feel some sensation so I knew when I was having a contraction but not having any pain! So we watched the monitor - cx came on - I pushed and pushed and pushed! This went on for over 2 hours of just pushing my hardest (all the while being paranoid about pointless things like pooing or bursting blood vessells in my eyes! hehe) Eventually he had moved down but not enough and they were getting concerned about bubs heart rate!! Dr John appeared decked out in his plastic apron and gumboots!! Legs up in stirrups (definitely not one of my finer moments in life!!) Vaccuum attached and I pushed and they pulled.... BAM!! Vaccuum pops off and blood goes EVERYWHERE!! Talk about scary! So they decided forceps was necessary! By this stage there were 2 midwives, my ob and then the paed needed to be in as well so I was getting a little scared!! Fortunately I felt nothing!! So with one big push from me and a pull from the forceps baby Ashton was brought into the world! Turns out the little guy had turned posterior and no one had picked it up - hence why the labour was sooo painful as it was all in my back and also why he didn't want to budge!!!
So they pulled him out, put him on my chest and the monkey pooed all over me! AWESOME!! haha But then they had to whisk him away to check him as he was cold (fortunately he was crying though so I knew he was breathing!!) He was fine though!
They gave him to me to cuddle but after about 5 minutes I needed to throw up so eventually after it had all settled down I gave him a breastfeed and he was awesome at it!!!!
So happy to have my little man in the world!!
Ok so hopefully I can get my birth story in before Peter needs the computer then I can come on and update the rest!
So where to start:
To begin with I had 2 stretch and sweeps in an attempt to get labour started. The first one I started losing my plug but not much else then the second one when I was 4 days past my due date I feel really kicked things off!! It felt a lot more uncomfy and I felt she really gave it a good sweep!
So that was on the Monday! Wednesday morning I woke up at 6am with what was definitely contractions. They were stronger than BH but not getting any stronger or closer together! They remained 6-8 minutes apart the whooolllee day!! IT was frustrating because I spent the whole day wondering if it was going to go forward or fizzle out into nothing! I'd been booked in for an induction on Monday the 27th but I really wanted bubba out before xmas!!
I woke up at about 2am on Thursday 23/12 with much stronger pains but tried to get some more sleep! 4am I woke up in much more pain and they were coming on about 4-5 minutes apart! I got up, had some panadol and a heat pack. No luck...it still hurt so I jumped in the shower and still no luck!! It hurt!! When they say you;ll definitely know the difference between BH and the real deal they aren't kidding!!
Woke mum and Peter up to say it's time to go to the hospital! By this stage I could barely walk through the contractions and would just have to stand bent over on the spot stamping my foot on the floor!!
Got to the hospital at about 6am. They put the monitor on me, and did an internal at about 8am - still only 1cm dialated!! I was not impressed as I was in a lot of pain!! They decided to send me home but as I had an appointment booked with the midwife for 9.30 that morning they got me in early! They wanted to do a fluid check to make sure all was good around the baby!! So during the scan I had 3 morevery painful contractions! The midwife thought she should probably do another internal to check before sending me home so this time only an hour later I was 3cm! YAY things were moving!! But I still went home with some panadeine forte and some sleeping tablets!
Got home about 9.30am hopped straight into bed...this lasted an hour until the pain was UNBEARABLE!! So back in the car we went! Got to the hospital and back into the delivery suite where the midwife suggested I have a bath which soothed the pain for a little while! Was nice and peaceful just lying in there with DP sitting next to me! But after 45 minutes (which I thought was only 15 minutes) the contractions were too painful and I had to get out! So back to the room we go and I'm asking for the gas!! Again...unless you timed it right didn't do much as it takes a bit to kick in! Plus it made me want to throw up so that was horrible!! I needed something stronger - there was no way I could imagine walking through them or anything like they suggest! The pain was all in my back and even being on all fours it HURT!!!!!
I was the loudest on the ward by far but I just didn't care! I just wanted the pain to stop!! So I got the pethidine (Slowly working my way through each level of painkiller!!) But again.... the pain was ridiculous!! Until eventually I just yelled out wanting an epidural! I have no idea what time it was as time has no meaning by this stage!!
So they moved me into another room and gave me the epidural! I was so out of it by this stage I could barely hold my head up! Peter was holding me still but unfortunately the sight of the needle made him queasie so the dr's suggested he lie down for a little while!! As soon as that epi was in I was a whole new person!! I managed to get some sleep and then had a sense of humour about it all!!
Eventually the midwife broke my waters for me and when feeling for the head let me know he had quite a bit of hair!! hehe
So the time came when she decided it was time to push! They turned down the epi so I could feel some sensation so I knew when I was having a contraction but not having any pain! So we watched the monitor - cx came on - I pushed and pushed and pushed! This went on for over 2 hours of just pushing my hardest (all the while being paranoid about pointless things like pooing or bursting blood vessells in my eyes! hehe) Eventually he had moved down but not enough and they were getting concerned about bubs heart rate!! Dr John appeared decked out in his plastic apron and gumboots!! Legs up in stirrups (definitely not one of my finer moments in life!!) Vaccuum attached and I pushed and they pulled.... BAM!! Vaccuum pops off and blood goes EVERYWHERE!! Talk about scary! So they decided forceps was necessary! By this stage there were 2 midwives, my ob and then the paed needed to be in as well so I was getting a little scared!! Fortunately I felt nothing!! So with one big push from me and a pull from the forceps baby Ashton was brought into the world! Turns out the little guy had turned posterior and no one had picked it up - hence why the labour was sooo painful as it was all in my back and also why he didn't want to budge!!!
So they pulled him out, put him on my chest and the monkey pooed all over me! AWESOME!! haha But then they had to whisk him away to check him as he was cold (fortunately he was crying though so I knew he was breathing!!) He was fine though!
They gave him to me to cuddle but after about 5 minutes I needed to throw up so eventually after it had all settled down I gave him a breastfeed and he was awesome at it!!!!
So happy to have my little man in the world!!
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
2 days til Due Date!!
Ok so I know I know I've beem totally and mega slack with the blog!! But there hasn't really been a lot happening in the pregnancy department...just rolling along!! BUT alas I find myself 2 days out from my due date!!
Had my final OB appointment this morning where he performed a stretch and sweep of the cervix! I was a little bit worried as people had said it could be painful but my cervix must have been nice and soft coz besides it being slightly uncomfortable it was absolutely fine! Some people are opposed to them but I was of the theory- between papsmears, the d&c, internal ultrasounds I have had a fair share of people making me uncomfy in there and this could prove beneficial to get bub moving!! So now we wait!
Think I had a small leak of waters yesterday after my nap - either that or I wee'd myself a bit (likely) but after some research it seems like a small leak! So FX things are happening! Have been having A LOT of BH that last few days - lots yesterday! Thought I woke up with a CX in the middle of the night as I woke up and the pain was all through my lower back as well! But I'm of the mind that if it is contractions they will wake me up more and more so I don't get too excited! I'm actually fairly rational about it all at the moment! Like when something new happens I don't jump up thinking 'this is it' but just that 'well at least my body is recognising this and hopefully will kick into gear soon'! So I try and just go with the flow!
If he decided xmas day is his birthday then so be it! That's the way the world turns - as Dr John said at least the hospital is pretty much empty so the chances of having a room to myself or with one other person instead of 4 are a lot higher!
So we wait! I am happy with how I am carrying so far aswell! Sleep is the only comlaint I have! I am now at the point where I need to sleep upright on my back because if I sleep on my side I get pelvic pain and NOW I also get cramps in my hips from the weight of my belly! So if I DO sleep on my side I'm now surrounded by pillows - between the legs, under the belly, behind me and also sleeping with my head on 3 pillows!!
I will be sad when this pregnancy is over as I will miss feeling little man in there - it's like that stage of a relationship when everything is still a possibility and the world is your oyster and and you can imagine everything.... because until bubs comes I can imagine what life i going to be like with our little guy..so once he is here then reality will kick in and I'm sure it is better than anything I have ever imagined!
So there you go.... up to date with where I am at...hopefully next time I post I will have little man! But I promise I won't leave it too long!!!
Had my final OB appointment this morning where he performed a stretch and sweep of the cervix! I was a little bit worried as people had said it could be painful but my cervix must have been nice and soft coz besides it being slightly uncomfortable it was absolutely fine! Some people are opposed to them but I was of the theory- between papsmears, the d&c, internal ultrasounds I have had a fair share of people making me uncomfy in there and this could prove beneficial to get bub moving!! So now we wait!
Think I had a small leak of waters yesterday after my nap - either that or I wee'd myself a bit (likely) but after some research it seems like a small leak! So FX things are happening! Have been having A LOT of BH that last few days - lots yesterday! Thought I woke up with a CX in the middle of the night as I woke up and the pain was all through my lower back as well! But I'm of the mind that if it is contractions they will wake me up more and more so I don't get too excited! I'm actually fairly rational about it all at the moment! Like when something new happens I don't jump up thinking 'this is it' but just that 'well at least my body is recognising this and hopefully will kick into gear soon'! So I try and just go with the flow!
If he decided xmas day is his birthday then so be it! That's the way the world turns - as Dr John said at least the hospital is pretty much empty so the chances of having a room to myself or with one other person instead of 4 are a lot higher!
So we wait! I am happy with how I am carrying so far aswell! Sleep is the only comlaint I have! I am now at the point where I need to sleep upright on my back because if I sleep on my side I get pelvic pain and NOW I also get cramps in my hips from the weight of my belly! So if I DO sleep on my side I'm now surrounded by pillows - between the legs, under the belly, behind me and also sleeping with my head on 3 pillows!!
I will be sad when this pregnancy is over as I will miss feeling little man in there - it's like that stage of a relationship when everything is still a possibility and the world is your oyster and and you can imagine everything.... because until bubs comes I can imagine what life i going to be like with our little guy..so once he is here then reality will kick in and I'm sure it is better than anything I have ever imagined!
So there you go.... up to date with where I am at...hopefully next time I post I will have little man! But I promise I won't leave it too long!!!
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Getting Impatient!
So almost at 37 weeks and am actually getting really really impatient! A lot more than I thought I would! I think because the November SWB girls have all got their little bundles and surprisingly heaps of people due in December have also popped and i feel like I have so long to go!!
I know realistically its not that far away but I think I am just anxious to get this little guy out so i know he will be here for xmas!!
Been feeling pretty good the last couple of days - if it weren't for my belly I would swear I would forget i was pregnant - that and the constant reminder with alien like movements happening! He currently has the hiccups and it's just annoying! He gets them like 4 times a day minimum!! So it gets a bit monotonous!!
Had an ob appointment this morning - they go weekly from this point!! EEP! But everything is great! BP is normal, Fundal height measuring only a few days behind and his heartbeat sounds nice and strong! Dr John seems to think that whilst he's not a small bub he is definitely not a whopper! He doesn't think he'll be close to 9 pounds which is very reassuring! Mind you - Peter's mum had told him he was HUGE when I looked at his baby book the other day he was only 7p 9oz!! So not a big bubba at all!! Silly woman!!
Been getting an achey belly lately - like I need to do a bowel movement but I don;t need too (like sorry if tmi but i'm going pretty regularly so it's not like I'm blocked up) so I'm wondering if thats good signs! Also the general period like pain (which was a stark reminder that i will be going back to getting AF soon! BOO)!!
Dr John also said he was engaged but just didn't say how much! But I was happy that little man has figured out which way the exit is and will hopefully start to make his way down soon enough!!
Well that;s it from me for now - it is just about nap time for me now!!
I know realistically its not that far away but I think I am just anxious to get this little guy out so i know he will be here for xmas!!
Been feeling pretty good the last couple of days - if it weren't for my belly I would swear I would forget i was pregnant - that and the constant reminder with alien like movements happening! He currently has the hiccups and it's just annoying! He gets them like 4 times a day minimum!! So it gets a bit monotonous!!
Had an ob appointment this morning - they go weekly from this point!! EEP! But everything is great! BP is normal, Fundal height measuring only a few days behind and his heartbeat sounds nice and strong! Dr John seems to think that whilst he's not a small bub he is definitely not a whopper! He doesn't think he'll be close to 9 pounds which is very reassuring! Mind you - Peter's mum had told him he was HUGE when I looked at his baby book the other day he was only 7p 9oz!! So not a big bubba at all!! Silly woman!!
Been getting an achey belly lately - like I need to do a bowel movement but I don;t need too (like sorry if tmi but i'm going pretty regularly so it's not like I'm blocked up) so I'm wondering if thats good signs! Also the general period like pain (which was a stark reminder that i will be going back to getting AF soon! BOO)!!
Dr John also said he was engaged but just didn't say how much! But I was happy that little man has figured out which way the exit is and will hopefully start to make his way down soon enough!!
Well that;s it from me for now - it is just about nap time for me now!!
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
New Aches and Pains!
Yep I'm in pain! And it's not fun!! Starting about lunchtime yesterday I've just had this stomache ache which is quite painful and really uncomfy! Seems to be worse today though!! I'm not happy with this new pain as if it is something I'm going to have to deal with for 4 more weeks I will not be happy!!
I've been in bed all morning just trying to rest and take it easy! Seems ok when I wander around slowly but I need to rest very regularly! GRrrr!!! It's not contraction pain though as it is very very constant! I have had some low lying period like pain but its constant not coming and going so i'm not worried about it being early labour yet!
I tried sitting under the shower and having a bath last night and it worked for the time I was in the water but the minute I hopped out it was back! So I had an early night last night as bed was the only place I was comfortable! I had a pretty good sleep though so thats always good!!
I'm not worried about little man as he has been moving like a crazy person today so that's always reassuring! He's definitely dropped though as he has been giving my cervix/bladder some serious sucker punches yesterday and today which are new also! I swear I will wee myself by the end of this! hahaha Such a glamorous time!!
In all of this though as long as it means my body is heading in the right direction I will have to suck it up!! But seriously.... if I'm being a sook about this I can only imagine what I'm going to be like when the real thing starts!!!
I've been in bed all morning just trying to rest and take it easy! Seems ok when I wander around slowly but I need to rest very regularly! GRrrr!!! It's not contraction pain though as it is very very constant! I have had some low lying period like pain but its constant not coming and going so i'm not worried about it being early labour yet!
I tried sitting under the shower and having a bath last night and it worked for the time I was in the water but the minute I hopped out it was back! So I had an early night last night as bed was the only place I was comfortable! I had a pretty good sleep though so thats always good!!
I'm not worried about little man as he has been moving like a crazy person today so that's always reassuring! He's definitely dropped though as he has been giving my cervix/bladder some serious sucker punches yesterday and today which are new also! I swear I will wee myself by the end of this! hahaha Such a glamorous time!!
In all of this though as long as it means my body is heading in the right direction I will have to suck it up!! But seriously.... if I'm being a sook about this I can only imagine what I'm going to be like when the real thing starts!!!
Monday, November 15, 2010
Babyshower!
So a super busy weekend and my babyshower is done!! Kinda sad really but was sooo worth it!!
After a little meltdown last week about feeling let down by friends etc. I feel a lot better! Friday night was busy busy with Peter and I hitting the supermarket and then finally getting home to start making salads etc. so that was a big night! Then Saturday Peter and I up early again so we could get to the Butcher to grab some meat, then he's off to cricket so I spent 2 hours cleaning the house (which i'd spent 2 weeks cleaning already) so then finally the girls decided to arrive and they actually were really helpful and helped make some Mars Bar slice, Rum Balls etc. Saturday night I was home but Peter was out so I spent the night chatting to my parents who were looking after my nieces (6y and 4m) and my nephew (5y) so that was entertaining!!
Sunday - the big day - up early again with finishing the cooking, another trip up to the supermarket, setting up the decorations and so it goes on and on and on - before even getting out of bed I was sooo over the day already! Especially knowing I wasn't going to get my nana nap!! haha But then once I was ready and people started to arrive it really turned into SUCH a fantastic day! Virtually everyone I invited turned up plus about 20 boys from the cricket club showed up for Peter so including kids we are talking about over 40 people! It was insane!! I was not expecting it at all!!
Then the presents! Little man is such a spoilt and lucky boy already - with so many people around who are so excited about his arrival! Everyone was so generous! The boys were invited to a BBQ so obviously no one expected presents but the girls that came were just crazy generous!!
That's just them all bunched up but hidden within those bags is soo much stuff!! I have to go through it properly today and write down who gave little man what and then send out Thank You notes to everyone!! Just crazy!! I feel very blessed to have so many people around us that really care!!
So all in all the day went off without a hitch (Even the weather which was disgustingly wet on Saturday managed to behave and no rain and even though it was overcast it wasn't cold) so I'm so happy with how it all went! BUT today I am exhausted! I've only been up an hour and a half and am just about ready to head back to bed for a short nap!!
Pelvic pain is making sleeping very annoying - i'm ok laying in one spot but if I try to roll over it hurts soo much! BUt thats the worst of it so I can't complain too much! I just simply can not believe how close it all is!! EEEEPPP!!!!!!
After a little meltdown last week about feeling let down by friends etc. I feel a lot better! Friday night was busy busy with Peter and I hitting the supermarket and then finally getting home to start making salads etc. so that was a big night! Then Saturday Peter and I up early again so we could get to the Butcher to grab some meat, then he's off to cricket so I spent 2 hours cleaning the house (which i'd spent 2 weeks cleaning already) so then finally the girls decided to arrive and they actually were really helpful and helped make some Mars Bar slice, Rum Balls etc. Saturday night I was home but Peter was out so I spent the night chatting to my parents who were looking after my nieces (6y and 4m) and my nephew (5y) so that was entertaining!!
Sunday - the big day - up early again with finishing the cooking, another trip up to the supermarket, setting up the decorations and so it goes on and on and on - before even getting out of bed I was sooo over the day already! Especially knowing I wasn't going to get my nana nap!! haha But then once I was ready and people started to arrive it really turned into SUCH a fantastic day! Virtually everyone I invited turned up plus about 20 boys from the cricket club showed up for Peter so including kids we are talking about over 40 people! It was insane!! I was not expecting it at all!!
Then the presents! Little man is such a spoilt and lucky boy already - with so many people around who are so excited about his arrival! Everyone was so generous! The boys were invited to a BBQ so obviously no one expected presents but the girls that came were just crazy generous!!
That's just them all bunched up but hidden within those bags is soo much stuff!! I have to go through it properly today and write down who gave little man what and then send out Thank You notes to everyone!! Just crazy!! I feel very blessed to have so many people around us that really care!!
So all in all the day went off without a hitch (Even the weather which was disgustingly wet on Saturday managed to behave and no rain and even though it was overcast it wasn't cold) so I'm so happy with how it all went! BUT today I am exhausted! I've only been up an hour and a half and am just about ready to head back to bed for a short nap!!
Pelvic pain is making sleeping very annoying - i'm ok laying in one spot but if I try to roll over it hurts soo much! BUt thats the worst of it so I can't complain too much! I just simply can not believe how close it all is!! EEEEPPP!!!!!!
Friday, November 12, 2010
35 weeks 1 day!
Well I know i've been terribly slack on updating but there really hasn't been a lot going on from this end!! We are just waiting waiting waiting!!
Been on Maternity leave for 2 weeks now and am still not bored! Have managed to conquer the everest of cleaning though so I feel good about that - I'm not nesting yet so I didn't enjoy the cleaning one bit! But it had to be done for my baby shower on Sunday! IT is done now and I have plenty of time to keep it clean!!
Also I got my text books and first assignment for my Personal Training course on Monday so have spent about an hour and a half every day on that! I want to get the first 2 assignments + my first aid certificate done by christmas as that will have me completed certificate III so then after christmas I can focus on getting my cert IV done! I start my 8 week prac component on 11th Feb (providing all goes normally on the birth side of things) so then by Aprilish I should be fully qulaified along with my sister! I'm pretty excited about it!! Figure it is a great way to earn income around bubs and Peter without needing to worry about childcare or babysitters!!
On the pregnancy side of things - we have finished up our antenatal classes! Was a bit sad really! I really enjoyed them! We had a great group of people and always left laughing! But the couple we got along with the best had the same due date - would laugh if we ended up in hospital together!! haha Bubs has seriously got the pointiest limbs on the planet! I've changed his name from Reggie to Limby because I am constantly getting a foot there, or a knee there! It can be painful because it takes me by surprise! But always a reassurance that's for sure! I will so miss this side of it all!!
Umm...(TMI) but I think bub dropped a bit overnight/this morning as I was getting some period like pain (very dull though) and then when I was out at morning tea I got some stabby pains on the cervix and then when I went to the toilet I had leaked a bit - enough to go through to my pants! :( So I've had a pad on today - just a normal one and it seems it was probably just a bit of wee (isn't pregnancy just a sexy experience) and a bit of discharge which has definitely amped up! But I've been getting the period pain off and on again this afternoon so I'm just watching it and keeping an eye on it! I also had a teensy bit of spotting a few days ago (and we hadn't DTD or anything) but nothing since so as I said, just keeping an eye on it! Bubs has been a moving machine still so I'm not stressing about him!!
Belly shots:
Taken earlier today! As you can see I have one stretch mark on that side and the other side I have one that is identical plus one more!! But touch wood I've done alright to only have those ones! Can't complain about weight gain or anything as I have literally put on the bare minimum of what I need to - bubs is already 2.5kg so that plus fluid and stuff I'm not stressing too much about it at all! Plus from behind I still don't look pregnant so I can't complain about that! Though regardless of how big/little you are you can't avoid the waddle!! haha
Been on Maternity leave for 2 weeks now and am still not bored! Have managed to conquer the everest of cleaning though so I feel good about that - I'm not nesting yet so I didn't enjoy the cleaning one bit! But it had to be done for my baby shower on Sunday! IT is done now and I have plenty of time to keep it clean!!
Also I got my text books and first assignment for my Personal Training course on Monday so have spent about an hour and a half every day on that! I want to get the first 2 assignments + my first aid certificate done by christmas as that will have me completed certificate III so then after christmas I can focus on getting my cert IV done! I start my 8 week prac component on 11th Feb (providing all goes normally on the birth side of things) so then by Aprilish I should be fully qulaified along with my sister! I'm pretty excited about it!! Figure it is a great way to earn income around bubs and Peter without needing to worry about childcare or babysitters!!
On the pregnancy side of things - we have finished up our antenatal classes! Was a bit sad really! I really enjoyed them! We had a great group of people and always left laughing! But the couple we got along with the best had the same due date - would laugh if we ended up in hospital together!! haha Bubs has seriously got the pointiest limbs on the planet! I've changed his name from Reggie to Limby because I am constantly getting a foot there, or a knee there! It can be painful because it takes me by surprise! But always a reassurance that's for sure! I will so miss this side of it all!!
Umm...(TMI) but I think bub dropped a bit overnight/this morning as I was getting some period like pain (very dull though) and then when I was out at morning tea I got some stabby pains on the cervix and then when I went to the toilet I had leaked a bit - enough to go through to my pants! :( So I've had a pad on today - just a normal one and it seems it was probably just a bit of wee (isn't pregnancy just a sexy experience) and a bit of discharge which has definitely amped up! But I've been getting the period pain off and on again this afternoon so I'm just watching it and keeping an eye on it! I also had a teensy bit of spotting a few days ago (and we hadn't DTD or anything) but nothing since so as I said, just keeping an eye on it! Bubs has been a moving machine still so I'm not stressing about him!!
Belly shots:
Taken earlier today! As you can see I have one stretch mark on that side and the other side I have one that is identical plus one more!! But touch wood I've done alright to only have those ones! Can't complain about weight gain or anything as I have literally put on the bare minimum of what I need to - bubs is already 2.5kg so that plus fluid and stuff I'm not stressing too much about it at all! Plus from behind I still don't look pregnant so I can't complain about that! Though regardless of how big/little you are you can't avoid the waddle!! hahaHave to say though I have become a lot more comfortable with my body since being pregnant! Like I could stroll around in the nude all day these days (I don't but I could) whereas before I never would have and I look at photos of pre baby now and wonder why I had issues!! I was so silly! If I can get back to what I was I will be so happy! haha So definitely happy with how it is all going!
Did my measurements the other day and I've only put on 3cm on my belly since about 30 weeks and my thighs have stayed the same as at the start! So again - my wefforts in maintaining exercise throughout the pregnancy has paid off! I'm trying to walk every day plus I'm still going swimming once a week!!
Umm..a massive shout out to the first of our SWB girls to pop - Kim and Lambchops!! Both welcoming their little men yesterday!!! Lachlan and Ollie are such lucky boys to have you ladies as their mums!! Can't wait to see a pic of Lachlan but Ollie - that photo is just beautiful! I'm so proud of you ladies!!!!!
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Materinty Leave!
Ok so I'm 3 days in to Maternity leave but with it having just been Cup Weekend today is really my first real day at home alone!! So I've managed to get Reggie's room tidy and everything put away. Everytime I finally get the room clean my sister's come round with more stuff so it's gradually been building til I could not longer find a spot on the floor. Plus I still hadn't gotten around to putting all his clothes away. I've spacebagged the size 00 and 0 clothes for storage (but still easy access), the 0000 I'm just keeping the tub that I have them sorted into as I can't see us needing them for too long and then the 000 are in his chest of drawers! He is certainly a baby with a lot of clothes already!!
I've also managed 3 loads of washing as well! I've only been managing to get things done with rest breaks as I'm so tired all the time still!! But definitely starting to make progress in the whole cleaning thing!! Tomorrow will be our bedroom and dining room (providing I get the kitchen done today) so then the whole place will basically be clean! YAY then I can work on maintaining that AND organising inside cupboards etc! Still waiting for the nesting to really hit me so I can go nuts!!
Been feeling a bit odd lately which has made me worry a bit too much about premature labour! Sorry if TMI here but I've basically had loose bowel movements and then yesterday was so achey and sore and tired and just felt crap! Then last night was having sooo many braxton hicks I was starting to freak out a little bit! But then I feel better today, braxton hicks haven't really been around much today though when I went to the toilet before and wiped (yep still a notorious checker) there was a teensy bit of blood.... I've not been to the toilet since but that basically put an end to any housekeeping I had been doing as I felt it was best to err on the side of the caution and have been on the couch for the last 2.5hours. If there is more when I go to the toilet again I will phone the midwives but for now it was only a teensy speck - still enough to freak me out a little bit though!!
Had our scan on Monday night and saw our amazing little boy (and yes confirmed yet again that he is still a he!! Everything is still perfect in there - placenta still functioning, waters still intact etc. After being measured he was measuring 2 days ahead at about 2.3kgs (5p 1oz) so looking at something in the 8p range which is good so far! Nice to know he isn't a giant baby!! haha
So the one on the left is basically him to a T - just as in our 28 week scan he knew we wanted pics so put his hands on his face again! But you can see in this one the little grin he has going on like he knew what he was doing!!!
The one on the right is the only profile we could get which makes his nose look bigger than it appeared on the screen! But he is still our little man and the images we were seeing on the screen were just amazing! It was sooo good to see our little guy again!
He is still head down which is great news! And he flips side to side when he feels like it! He has found my ribs for real now so I'm constantly getting kicked in the ribs as he is generally stretching his legs straight out in front so it was only a matter of time til he found them!!
Anyways..enough from me and the little guy! 5th and second last antenatal class tonight..will be interesting tonight - talking breastfeeding etc.!!!
I've also managed 3 loads of washing as well! I've only been managing to get things done with rest breaks as I'm so tired all the time still!! But definitely starting to make progress in the whole cleaning thing!! Tomorrow will be our bedroom and dining room (providing I get the kitchen done today) so then the whole place will basically be clean! YAY then I can work on maintaining that AND organising inside cupboards etc! Still waiting for the nesting to really hit me so I can go nuts!!
Been feeling a bit odd lately which has made me worry a bit too much about premature labour! Sorry if TMI here but I've basically had loose bowel movements and then yesterday was so achey and sore and tired and just felt crap! Then last night was having sooo many braxton hicks I was starting to freak out a little bit! But then I feel better today, braxton hicks haven't really been around much today though when I went to the toilet before and wiped (yep still a notorious checker) there was a teensy bit of blood.... I've not been to the toilet since but that basically put an end to any housekeeping I had been doing as I felt it was best to err on the side of the caution and have been on the couch for the last 2.5hours. If there is more when I go to the toilet again I will phone the midwives but for now it was only a teensy speck - still enough to freak me out a little bit though!!
Had our scan on Monday night and saw our amazing little boy (and yes confirmed yet again that he is still a he!! Everything is still perfect in there - placenta still functioning, waters still intact etc. After being measured he was measuring 2 days ahead at about 2.3kgs (5p 1oz) so looking at something in the 8p range which is good so far! Nice to know he isn't a giant baby!! haha
So the one on the left is basically him to a T - just as in our 28 week scan he knew we wanted pics so put his hands on his face again! But you can see in this one the little grin he has going on like he knew what he was doing!!!
The one on the right is the only profile we could get which makes his nose look bigger than it appeared on the screen! But he is still our little man and the images we were seeing on the screen were just amazing! It was sooo good to see our little guy again!
He is still head down which is great news! And he flips side to side when he feels like it! He has found my ribs for real now so I'm constantly getting kicked in the ribs as he is generally stretching his legs straight out in front so it was only a matter of time til he found them!!
Anyways..enough from me and the little guy! 5th and second last antenatal class tonight..will be interesting tonight - talking breastfeeding etc.!!!
Thursday, October 28, 2010
33 WEEKS/ 7 WEEKS TO GO!!!!
Well I know it has been AAGGEEESS since I last posted but basically it has gotten crazy busy at work so I really haven't had time! Plus not a whole lot has happened since last I don't think!
But yep - 33 weeks today which is exciting! Weird to think baby can come pretty much any time from 4+ weeks (if he decided to make an early appearance) I'm not sure whether I think he will come early or late! I've felt early this whole time but I wonder if that is just wishful thinking!!!
2nd last day of work too!! I'm so pumped to be at this point! I can not wait to finish up and then be able to get stuff done without the hassles of work in the way!! hehe I've so much cleaning and non baby related stuff to do that it's so hard when I only have 1 day a week off (Weekends are for socialising! haha)! So going out for lunch with some work buddies today then tomorrow will have a whole office lunch!
4th Antenatal class last night - was really interesting and confronting! We watched a dvd of a Csec being done and saw the FORCEPS! HOLY CRAP!!!! They are HUGE!! Hope I wont' need either! Poor Peter fot so squirmish watching the csec being done! But has promised he'd still come in and just sit behind the screen if it came down to it! Bless him!! I'm completely loving the classes though! Can't believe there is only 2 left!!
Scan this coming Monday night to check the approximate growth of little man which will be interesting! I don't have any fat on my belly so he is so sharp and pointy!! But I wonder often how big he is and whether he takes after his dad (12p) or me (6p 11oz)!
Umm.... otherwise he is just a wriggly worm constantly! I feel him all day every day! It's incredible! But also lets me know that he is yet to engage - which at this point is fine!! He's a wriggle monster and I love it! Will be weird when he is out and I no longer feel him in my belly! I will miss it as I don't have too many painful hits!!!
Not sure if I mentioned it but last week we did a tour of the maternity ward and I saw that not only do we have showers to use but they also have a bath which I am pretty pumped about!! I think I will take full advantage of that!!!
I can't believe how quickly the time has gone!!! I can't WAIT to bring him home!!
But yep - 33 weeks today which is exciting! Weird to think baby can come pretty much any time from 4+ weeks (if he decided to make an early appearance) I'm not sure whether I think he will come early or late! I've felt early this whole time but I wonder if that is just wishful thinking!!!
2nd last day of work too!! I'm so pumped to be at this point! I can not wait to finish up and then be able to get stuff done without the hassles of work in the way!! hehe I've so much cleaning and non baby related stuff to do that it's so hard when I only have 1 day a week off (Weekends are for socialising! haha)! So going out for lunch with some work buddies today then tomorrow will have a whole office lunch!
4th Antenatal class last night - was really interesting and confronting! We watched a dvd of a Csec being done and saw the FORCEPS! HOLY CRAP!!!! They are HUGE!! Hope I wont' need either! Poor Peter fot so squirmish watching the csec being done! But has promised he'd still come in and just sit behind the screen if it came down to it! Bless him!! I'm completely loving the classes though! Can't believe there is only 2 left!!
Scan this coming Monday night to check the approximate growth of little man which will be interesting! I don't have any fat on my belly so he is so sharp and pointy!! But I wonder often how big he is and whether he takes after his dad (12p) or me (6p 11oz)!
Umm.... otherwise he is just a wriggly worm constantly! I feel him all day every day! It's incredible! But also lets me know that he is yet to engage - which at this point is fine!! He's a wriggle monster and I love it! Will be weird when he is out and I no longer feel him in my belly! I will miss it as I don't have too many painful hits!!!
Not sure if I mentioned it but last week we did a tour of the maternity ward and I saw that not only do we have showers to use but they also have a bath which I am pretty pumped about!! I think I will take full advantage of that!!!
I can't believe how quickly the time has gone!!! I can't WAIT to bring him home!!
Monday, October 18, 2010
Getting Uncomfy Now!
Yep as the title states I'm starting to get uncomfy! I've barely put on any weight other than what would be baby and fluid and placenta etc. so my body is really struggling to hold this thing up!! He's definitely growing in there but I am not popping out a hell of a lot so he's getting to the point where he'll lay on a ligament or something which reeaallly hurts when I walk! Yesterday I had to stop walking after only about 50m between the car and the shops (we were only on our way in) but a few nudges and he shifted so I was fine but I am definitely starting to get a waddle on!! haha I try not to waddle but on days when I am tired and uncomfortable I just can't help it!
I think he's dropped down a bit further also - feeling period like pain and a sore lower back! My tummy isn't sitting AS high (but something you would only notice if like me you study my belly very often!) So hopefully he's getting himself all snuggly in there so he'll be ready to come out! I'm happy with a 37 week arrival! He'll be fully baked by then! hehe Not likely if my family history has anything to do with! We are notorious for needing inductions for our first! BUT Peter was a premmie bub (4 weeks) so hopefully that'll help! haha
Otherwise he is still just being a wriggle worm still which I LOVE! I feel all grumbly and complain but all it takes is a little swish, roll or kick and I can't wipe the smile off my face. It is probably one part of this pregnancy that I will miss!! Fortunately though he is yet to stretch up and still just goes across so my ribs are still safe! haha
I can not believe how close we are all getting! IT is amazing! Like it really has gone amazingly quickly! I mean a couple of the SWB girls are almost ready to pop and it just WOW!! haha
I had another dream the other night! They really do seem to be every couple of weeks in equal progression with little man. This one he just came out and I was just holding him and he was the spitting image of Peter as a kid! It was soooo adorable! Then he just went back in and that was that! It was so awesome! I felt really at peace after seeing that!!! I love these dreams!
7.5 work days left - (2 weeks) and our next scan on 1st November - can't wait to see him again! So close too!!!
Besides the usual pregnancy complaints I am very much still all smiles over here! This whole thing still amazes me and is everything I have ever wanted!!!!
I think he's dropped down a bit further also - feeling period like pain and a sore lower back! My tummy isn't sitting AS high (but something you would only notice if like me you study my belly very often!) So hopefully he's getting himself all snuggly in there so he'll be ready to come out! I'm happy with a 37 week arrival! He'll be fully baked by then! hehe Not likely if my family history has anything to do with! We are notorious for needing inductions for our first! BUT Peter was a premmie bub (4 weeks) so hopefully that'll help! haha
Otherwise he is still just being a wriggle worm still which I LOVE! I feel all grumbly and complain but all it takes is a little swish, roll or kick and I can't wipe the smile off my face. It is probably one part of this pregnancy that I will miss!! Fortunately though he is yet to stretch up and still just goes across so my ribs are still safe! haha
I can not believe how close we are all getting! IT is amazing! Like it really has gone amazingly quickly! I mean a couple of the SWB girls are almost ready to pop and it just WOW!! haha
I had another dream the other night! They really do seem to be every couple of weeks in equal progression with little man. This one he just came out and I was just holding him and he was the spitting image of Peter as a kid! It was soooo adorable! Then he just went back in and that was that! It was so awesome! I felt really at peace after seeing that!!! I love these dreams!
7.5 work days left - (2 weeks) and our next scan on 1st November - can't wait to see him again! So close too!!!
Besides the usual pregnancy complaints I am very much still all smiles over here! This whole thing still amazes me and is everything I have ever wanted!!!!
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Who's a clever boy then?!?
Ob check up this morning (just routine) but I feel as we get closer to the due date the more informative these appointments are going to be! So things to come out of todays appointment:
*ALL my results came back clear - so GTT, Infections, Vitamin D, Iron etc. all perfect - YAY!! I Was worried about the GTT but so glad it's all good (I think we talk ourselves into these things)!
*Blood pressure still good...think he said 120/70? Possibly! So at least that is still a positive!
*Little man is so clever and is definitely head down in my pelvis (not engaged but still facing the right way) with his back going up to the left hand side. Which I thought I could feel his back there and but all confused as he must be like both his mum and dad with long limbs as I seriously feel kicks and punches way around to the right so he must stretch out a bit!! BUT I was soo worried about him being breech or transverse that to hear the clever little guy is definitely headed in the right direction is a big relief! I know things can change but at least for now he is being clever!!
*The chances of me having this baby on Christmas day are slim! Dr John informed me that they don't induce on weekends (which Christmas falls on a Saturday) and they will most likely not induce me Christmas Eve either and said if I need to be induced it'll most likely be a couple of days before christmas! SO I'm more than happy with this news! I really did not want to be spending Christmas day in the hospital and wanted to be able to spend christmas with our little man at home with family!!
Heard his heartbeat and still beating away nicely! It's amazing how connected I feel to this little man! He'll be annoying with his hiccups (which are constant) or by putting an enormous amount of pressure on my bladder but then he'll move or kick and it'll just make me smile and remember that he is amazing!!!
I started taking Raspberry Leaf tablets last week but am pretty convinced I had some kind of allergic reaction to them - my skin got itchy and I developed a small but irritating rash on my lower back. Also had some shortness of breath - kind of felt like asthma which I haven't had to deal with for years! So I stopped taking them (last day was Thursday) and everything seems to have disappeared! So there goes that idea!
Everything is unintentionally super organised as home! Nursery is virtually finished - bought blinds to go up and just need change mat and nappy stacker which I'm waiting til after my baby shower to get. I've about 2 loads of clothes left to wash which I will finish tomorrow so then I can put all his clothes away! I'll have nothing left to do by the time I finish work which is in 2.5 weeks or 11 working days (including today!!!) hehe WOOP WOOP!!
So all good news at the moment!!!!
*ALL my results came back clear - so GTT, Infections, Vitamin D, Iron etc. all perfect - YAY!! I Was worried about the GTT but so glad it's all good (I think we talk ourselves into these things)!
*Blood pressure still good...think he said 120/70? Possibly! So at least that is still a positive!
*Little man is so clever and is definitely head down in my pelvis (not engaged but still facing the right way) with his back going up to the left hand side. Which I thought I could feel his back there and but all confused as he must be like both his mum and dad with long limbs as I seriously feel kicks and punches way around to the right so he must stretch out a bit!! BUT I was soo worried about him being breech or transverse that to hear the clever little guy is definitely headed in the right direction is a big relief! I know things can change but at least for now he is being clever!!
*The chances of me having this baby on Christmas day are slim! Dr John informed me that they don't induce on weekends (which Christmas falls on a Saturday) and they will most likely not induce me Christmas Eve either and said if I need to be induced it'll most likely be a couple of days before christmas! SO I'm more than happy with this news! I really did not want to be spending Christmas day in the hospital and wanted to be able to spend christmas with our little man at home with family!!
Heard his heartbeat and still beating away nicely! It's amazing how connected I feel to this little man! He'll be annoying with his hiccups (which are constant) or by putting an enormous amount of pressure on my bladder but then he'll move or kick and it'll just make me smile and remember that he is amazing!!!
I started taking Raspberry Leaf tablets last week but am pretty convinced I had some kind of allergic reaction to them - my skin got itchy and I developed a small but irritating rash on my lower back. Also had some shortness of breath - kind of felt like asthma which I haven't had to deal with for years! So I stopped taking them (last day was Thursday) and everything seems to have disappeared! So there goes that idea!
Everything is unintentionally super organised as home! Nursery is virtually finished - bought blinds to go up and just need change mat and nappy stacker which I'm waiting til after my baby shower to get. I've about 2 loads of clothes left to wash which I will finish tomorrow so then I can put all his clothes away! I'll have nothing left to do by the time I finish work which is in 2.5 weeks or 11 working days (including today!!!) hehe WOOP WOOP!!
So all good news at the moment!!!!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
10 weeks to go!!!
Yep have reached the ripe old age of 30weeks! I'm so pumped that we have made it! Like HOLY CRAP how did that happen??? Though Peter has decided that Reggie is going to come out at 37 weeks (wishful thinking perhaps) so he's on a countdown to 7 weeks when realistically it could still be 12 weeks!!!
Had our first antenatal class yesterday - one of a series of 6! The first 4 on labour and birth and the last 2 on breastfeeding etc! I think Peter will get more out of it than I will (the birth part) as I've had the pleasure of listening to my sisters and in all their openness haven't left anything out!! Whereas Peter - I treat with 'boy gloves' and rather than use terms like 'bloody' or 'discharge' I just say things like 'it's messy'! haha Though I did have to explain to him what the mucous plug was the other day! Poor guy thought it was something I had to put in there myself!! haha
But it was good - also a bit of a confidence boost! Out of the 8 other women in my class I was TINY!!! Like they are all due about the same time and I'm talking I looked about 20 weeks to their 30ish!!! So that made me feel a bit better because I definitely have moments of feeling huge which even I know is silly! Will definitely have to post a pic up here soon!
Um... did my first 2 loads of baby clothes washing yesterday!! hehe It's all so tiny!! I love it! I wanted to start putting clothes into the chest of drawers but didn't want to be double handling everything so figured I mayas well wash them so THEN I can put them away!! It's just adorable and definietly makes it a lot more real!! Peter smiled when he walked in the door from work and there were 2 clothes horses full of tiny people clothes! hehe
Argh...today I am SOOOooo tired! To the point where i am considering trying to leave early today! I don't think I can make it through today! I am struggling and it's not even 11am! *sigh* I know it's only going to get harder and I don't help myself by being busy every night but seriously! I can not help it! I just am on the go ALL the time!!
Otherwise in pregnancy land everything is travelling well. Bubba feels like he is at a rave inside - seriously it's been mental the last 2 days! Like a couple of sharp boots then what feels like he is running on the inside of my belly!!! Its amazing but gees boy CALM DOWN!! hahaha
Anyways... best be off!!!! xo
Had our first antenatal class yesterday - one of a series of 6! The first 4 on labour and birth and the last 2 on breastfeeding etc! I think Peter will get more out of it than I will (the birth part) as I've had the pleasure of listening to my sisters and in all their openness haven't left anything out!! Whereas Peter - I treat with 'boy gloves' and rather than use terms like 'bloody' or 'discharge' I just say things like 'it's messy'! haha Though I did have to explain to him what the mucous plug was the other day! Poor guy thought it was something I had to put in there myself!! haha
But it was good - also a bit of a confidence boost! Out of the 8 other women in my class I was TINY!!! Like they are all due about the same time and I'm talking I looked about 20 weeks to their 30ish!!! So that made me feel a bit better because I definitely have moments of feeling huge which even I know is silly! Will definitely have to post a pic up here soon!
Um... did my first 2 loads of baby clothes washing yesterday!! hehe It's all so tiny!! I love it! I wanted to start putting clothes into the chest of drawers but didn't want to be double handling everything so figured I mayas well wash them so THEN I can put them away!! It's just adorable and definietly makes it a lot more real!! Peter smiled when he walked in the door from work and there were 2 clothes horses full of tiny people clothes! hehe
Argh...today I am SOOOooo tired! To the point where i am considering trying to leave early today! I don't think I can make it through today! I am struggling and it's not even 11am! *sigh* I know it's only going to get harder and I don't help myself by being busy every night but seriously! I can not help it! I just am on the go ALL the time!!
Otherwise in pregnancy land everything is travelling well. Bubba feels like he is at a rave inside - seriously it's been mental the last 2 days! Like a couple of sharp boots then what feels like he is running on the inside of my belly!!! Its amazing but gees boy CALM DOWN!! hahaha
Anyways... best be off!!!! xo
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
A nursery at last!!
Yep so here I am edging closer to 30 weeks (2 more days!!) and I could not be more excited about where we are at!!
Dp got stuck into the nursery last week and my BIL came over Saturday morning to help put the border up and WALA! It looks amazing! It's everything I ever dreamt a nursery for my child to look like! Even better infact!
So here's the pic of our little man's cot which mum and I put up together on Sunday! It looks sooo good and was really simple to put up aswell (after spending 5 minutes trying to put it up without instructions we then decided to print them off and it all made so much more sense after that! hehe)
I then washed all the cot manchester and made it up! Sadly my little man won't be the first one using the cot as my nieces will be making this room home when they have sleepovers between now and December! But thats ok! I have another cot set I can use to make my little man feel special!!
And here is the other side of the room! We paid $140 for this set (the bookcase/toybox and linen drawer) at a garage sale last year! BARGAIN!!!
Dp got stuck into the nursery last week and my BIL came over Saturday morning to help put the border up and WALA! It looks amazing! It's everything I ever dreamt a nursery for my child to look like! Even better infact!
I then washed all the cot manchester and made it up! Sadly my little man won't be the first one using the cot as my nieces will be making this room home when they have sleepovers between now and December! But thats ok! I have another cot set I can use to make my little man feel special!!
And here is the other side of the room! We paid $140 for this set (the bookcase/toybox and linen drawer) at a garage sale last year! BARGAIN!!!So I cleaned that up and at the moment the toybox is proving useful storage for nappies and bits and pieces that don't have a home yet! There are 2 single wardrobes in the room that will be emptied out which will be excellent storage!
Either way I am so happy with how it is coming along! I still have to put the chest of drawers in (which is going in tonight) so I will be able to show pics of the 'changing nook' once I've got it all set up as I'm getting a change mat for the top of the drawers then just hanging a nappy stacker and some shelving to store lotions etc. and then I'll have a nifty little changing area without the expense of a change table!! :)
Reggie is travelling well! I'll do a belly pic on Thursday at 30 weeks - it's definitely a preggy bump now! But i'm getting used to it! He's still a wriggle worm so I can't complain!!! No complaints here at all in fact!!!
(Can I just add that Ebay is the best ever for baby stuff!) Cot - Boori Classic - $250, Cot Manchester - $150 from USA (for sheet, comforter, lamp, wall hangings, cot bumper)!! I could keep going nuts!!!)
Thursday, September 30, 2010
A summary of me! (warning...LONG)
Well taking a leaf out of Summa's book - and after the survey on Dp and myself I have decided to fill you in on a bit about me that isn't necessarily baby related!!
Ok I'm 25 and live in Melbourne! I love it here - the weather not so much but this is the place I call home! I've lived in Sydney when I was born (though born in Melbourne as it was over christmas and my family was down visiting!!) then Melbourne until I was 12, Brisbane (Sunnybank Hills) for a year and a half and have been in Melbourne ever since!
I'm the youngest of 3 girls and my sisters are my best friends! Between them they have 5 kids - Mak (6), Ri (almost 5), Xavier (3), Keely (1.5) and Brodie (3 months)! And I love each and every one of those kids as if they were my own! They are all so much their own people it amazes me! They never cease to amaze me and I can't help but think how amazing they will be when this little man comes along (they even refer to him as Reggie as everyone else does)!
I'm ridiculously close to my parents as well and have never been the kid that doesn't get along with my parents! I'll admit - being the youngest has it's advantages!
I have 2 absolute best friends in the whole world. One of which is my cousin - she is 3 months younger than me so we've basically grown up as sisters. And C who I've only known for 4 years but in that time we have both been through so much and I know she is one of those people who will be around for ever. I'm very blessed to have to them in my life!
Peter and I have been together only for 19 months - but it definitely was a case of 'you just know' when you've met the right one! He is an angel and I don't know how I got so lucky to find such an amazing guy! A perfect example being just last week C, Peter and I go swimming once a week and last week he didn't feel like it. So knowing I'd be disappointed was like 'how about, if you girls go swimming and i'll head over to C's house (we have a key) and cook you both dinner'! He's amazing and my friends do not hesitate in considering him as 'one of the girls'! It took me a while to get to him though -
There was ex no. 1 when I was 18 (15 months) who was one the most emotionally abusive and manipulative people I have ever known! But I thought I was in love and being nonconfrontational didn't fight back and as a result lost a lot of friends and probably the only time I fought with my parents. I finally came to my senses and broke up with him - a break up which took 3 months and the emotional abuse didn't stop (constant phone calls threatening suicide etc....how can one ignore that?).
A breif trip over to the USA with J (my cousin BFF) as we were supposed to be over there for a year as Au pairs....we both lasted 3 weeks!
I then spent 3 years being single and having the time of my life - moved out of home with 2 boys and 2 girls and lived it up! Out clubbing/partting 3 or 4 times a week and just doing what most people that age are supposed to do!! It was fantastic! I met Peter that year (when I was 20) but having just come from a relationship that had completely obliterated my self esteem I couldn't think of anything worse than being with someone else.
After that I moved back home and met Ex no 2. (18 months) He was lovely and quiet and everything ex no1 was not - he had a lot of mates and so I didn't have to worry about him not having his own life or trying to control everything. Only problem was - we weren't on the same wavelength. Where I wanted to marry and have kids at least in a couple of years he had no plans and it was a constant struggle to even convince him to spend the night at my house. Eventually after 18 months together we both knew that it just wasn't working. He wasn't a bad person and I don't think badly of him to this day. We just weren't heading in the same directions. It was a very sad break up and I was absolutely heartbroken for the first time in my life.
During the 18 months we were together I had travelled to Europe for 6 weeks with J. We contikied our way around Europe and met some of the most amazing people and saw amazing things...I couldn't even consider picking a 'favourite' city)! I was so happy to be travelling with my bestest friend in the whole world. We partied up some more whilst we were there!!
After Ex 2 and I broke up I took a break from guys and just focused on finding myself again. The 3 years I had single before him had taught me who I was and what I deserved in someone and that's what had given me the courage to break up with Ex 2. I knew I deserved more than he was giving me.
I spent the next 4 months just having fun again and conveniently not long after I became single C also broke up with her now ex (2 years) so I spent a lot of time nursing her through that as well! It was just after Christmas when I started talking to Peter on Facebook after 2 years of no communication! Facebook chat moved on to text messages which then after nearly a month ended with me going to a function at the cricket club and we've basically been inseparable since. I was determined not to get back into a relationship unless it was with someone who could give me what I deserved - which is what I think every deserves! He asked me out officially 2 weeks later, our first dance that night was to 'The First Cut is the Deepest' and I thought it was so appropriate. The wound still hadn't healed completely and I remember tearing up dancing with him because I thought how vulnerable a position I was putting myself into again. He told me he loved me a month after that - I took a month longer the reciprocate because whilst I felt it I was just sooo scared of opening that door. But we tell each other about 10 times a day how much we love each other even still so I think I'm pretty ok with it now!
After 3 months together (not long I know) I had a bit of a scare when AF decided to go missing (I was on thr pill). She just didn't show! So I broke the news to Peter that it was a possibility despite getting BFN's. Scariest moment of my life. But he took it so well and just said 'we'll get through it' that we both knew that despite not having been together long that we really were there already!! So I didn't go back on the pill (af arrived after 8 weeks... no idea where she went) and we just started TTC!! It took 4 months before we got a BFP which was sadly lost at 6w 3d (though I didn't find out until I had a scan at 9w 3d, the hardest part being that bub still had a heart beat then but it was slow and they were small. A week later a scan confirmed that bub had infact past away 2 days after the scan). Such a little fighter to hold on for that long, but it was not to be. That was the second time I have experienced heartbreak and it sucked! I had a D&C a week later and physically recovered pretty quickly but it took a long time to stop crying or to stop the urge to just cry. I just felt so sad about losing the little one. A sadness I've never felt before and I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy.
We started trying again straight away and it took another 5 months before we got our BFP (though I'm certain there was a chemical pregnancy in that time also) and also an anovulatory cycle or 2! I am now 29 weeks along and travelling amazingly with this beautiful little boy in my tummy and a partner who is simply amazing. This pregnancy has brought us even closer together! He told me the other day when I was feeling fat that he was saying to one of the girls at work that he thinks pregnancy and the pregnant body is just one of the most beautiful things on this earth. He tells me everyday how sexy he thinks I am and how I'm doing an amazing job etc. and just really tells me everything I need to hear! He kisses my belly, blows raspberries and every night before sleep and every morning upon waking will put his hand on my belly just to feel the little man kicking around in there! It's just the best feeling and I can't wait to see him as a father!!
So if you've made it this far I commend you! But at least now you know more about me and who I am and where I've come from to get to this place!!!
Xoxo
Ok I'm 25 and live in Melbourne! I love it here - the weather not so much but this is the place I call home! I've lived in Sydney when I was born (though born in Melbourne as it was over christmas and my family was down visiting!!) then Melbourne until I was 12, Brisbane (Sunnybank Hills) for a year and a half and have been in Melbourne ever since!
I'm the youngest of 3 girls and my sisters are my best friends! Between them they have 5 kids - Mak (6), Ri (almost 5), Xavier (3), Keely (1.5) and Brodie (3 months)! And I love each and every one of those kids as if they were my own! They are all so much their own people it amazes me! They never cease to amaze me and I can't help but think how amazing they will be when this little man comes along (they even refer to him as Reggie as everyone else does)!
I'm ridiculously close to my parents as well and have never been the kid that doesn't get along with my parents! I'll admit - being the youngest has it's advantages!
I have 2 absolute best friends in the whole world. One of which is my cousin - she is 3 months younger than me so we've basically grown up as sisters. And C who I've only known for 4 years but in that time we have both been through so much and I know she is one of those people who will be around for ever. I'm very blessed to have to them in my life!
Peter and I have been together only for 19 months - but it definitely was a case of 'you just know' when you've met the right one! He is an angel and I don't know how I got so lucky to find such an amazing guy! A perfect example being just last week C, Peter and I go swimming once a week and last week he didn't feel like it. So knowing I'd be disappointed was like 'how about, if you girls go swimming and i'll head over to C's house (we have a key) and cook you both dinner'! He's amazing and my friends do not hesitate in considering him as 'one of the girls'! It took me a while to get to him though -
There was ex no. 1 when I was 18 (15 months) who was one the most emotionally abusive and manipulative people I have ever known! But I thought I was in love and being nonconfrontational didn't fight back and as a result lost a lot of friends and probably the only time I fought with my parents. I finally came to my senses and broke up with him - a break up which took 3 months and the emotional abuse didn't stop (constant phone calls threatening suicide etc....how can one ignore that?).
A breif trip over to the USA with J (my cousin BFF) as we were supposed to be over there for a year as Au pairs....we both lasted 3 weeks!
I then spent 3 years being single and having the time of my life - moved out of home with 2 boys and 2 girls and lived it up! Out clubbing/partting 3 or 4 times a week and just doing what most people that age are supposed to do!! It was fantastic! I met Peter that year (when I was 20) but having just come from a relationship that had completely obliterated my self esteem I couldn't think of anything worse than being with someone else.
After that I moved back home and met Ex no 2. (18 months) He was lovely and quiet and everything ex no1 was not - he had a lot of mates and so I didn't have to worry about him not having his own life or trying to control everything. Only problem was - we weren't on the same wavelength. Where I wanted to marry and have kids at least in a couple of years he had no plans and it was a constant struggle to even convince him to spend the night at my house. Eventually after 18 months together we both knew that it just wasn't working. He wasn't a bad person and I don't think badly of him to this day. We just weren't heading in the same directions. It was a very sad break up and I was absolutely heartbroken for the first time in my life.
During the 18 months we were together I had travelled to Europe for 6 weeks with J. We contikied our way around Europe and met some of the most amazing people and saw amazing things...I couldn't even consider picking a 'favourite' city)! I was so happy to be travelling with my bestest friend in the whole world. We partied up some more whilst we were there!!
After Ex 2 and I broke up I took a break from guys and just focused on finding myself again. The 3 years I had single before him had taught me who I was and what I deserved in someone and that's what had given me the courage to break up with Ex 2. I knew I deserved more than he was giving me.
I spent the next 4 months just having fun again and conveniently not long after I became single C also broke up with her now ex (2 years) so I spent a lot of time nursing her through that as well! It was just after Christmas when I started talking to Peter on Facebook after 2 years of no communication! Facebook chat moved on to text messages which then after nearly a month ended with me going to a function at the cricket club and we've basically been inseparable since. I was determined not to get back into a relationship unless it was with someone who could give me what I deserved - which is what I think every deserves! He asked me out officially 2 weeks later, our first dance that night was to 'The First Cut is the Deepest' and I thought it was so appropriate. The wound still hadn't healed completely and I remember tearing up dancing with him because I thought how vulnerable a position I was putting myself into again. He told me he loved me a month after that - I took a month longer the reciprocate because whilst I felt it I was just sooo scared of opening that door. But we tell each other about 10 times a day how much we love each other even still so I think I'm pretty ok with it now!
After 3 months together (not long I know) I had a bit of a scare when AF decided to go missing (I was on thr pill). She just didn't show! So I broke the news to Peter that it was a possibility despite getting BFN's. Scariest moment of my life. But he took it so well and just said 'we'll get through it' that we both knew that despite not having been together long that we really were there already!! So I didn't go back on the pill (af arrived after 8 weeks... no idea where she went) and we just started TTC!! It took 4 months before we got a BFP which was sadly lost at 6w 3d (though I didn't find out until I had a scan at 9w 3d, the hardest part being that bub still had a heart beat then but it was slow and they were small. A week later a scan confirmed that bub had infact past away 2 days after the scan). Such a little fighter to hold on for that long, but it was not to be. That was the second time I have experienced heartbreak and it sucked! I had a D&C a week later and physically recovered pretty quickly but it took a long time to stop crying or to stop the urge to just cry. I just felt so sad about losing the little one. A sadness I've never felt before and I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy.
We started trying again straight away and it took another 5 months before we got our BFP (though I'm certain there was a chemical pregnancy in that time also) and also an anovulatory cycle or 2! I am now 29 weeks along and travelling amazingly with this beautiful little boy in my tummy and a partner who is simply amazing. This pregnancy has brought us even closer together! He told me the other day when I was feeling fat that he was saying to one of the girls at work that he thinks pregnancy and the pregnant body is just one of the most beautiful things on this earth. He tells me everyday how sexy he thinks I am and how I'm doing an amazing job etc. and just really tells me everything I need to hear! He kisses my belly, blows raspberries and every night before sleep and every morning upon waking will put his hand on my belly just to feel the little man kicking around in there! It's just the best feeling and I can't wait to see him as a father!!
So if you've made it this far I commend you! But at least now you know more about me and who I am and where I've come from to get to this place!!!
Xoxo
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Elbow or Knee?
Not much to report on today but figured I hadn't done an update in a few days!!
Little man seems to have had quite the growth spurt over the last week or so! I can feel him everytime he rolls over and it only take a light press around my belly to find a hard spot which is part of baby!! He tends to hang around my belly button quite a bit! I'm pretty certain we can work out his tiny bum as we have a rough idea of where his head is (down to my right tucked in nicely) and he is generally laying sideways with little feet flailing every which way!! He hasn't seemed to work out if he shuffles around a bit he'll be able to stretch his legs a little bit more as I seem have all this empty space sitting up the top!
So it has definitely reached a point where yesterday and this morning I felt a definite elbow or knee in my hand as it was small and pointy and felt soooo weird!!! So definite!!! It's cool but weird!!!
Nursery is still coming together slowly! Will have to take more pictures!! Cricket and this damn Grand Final is taking up a lot of time with DP out almost every night with training, then he's supposed to train Saturday morning and then have a practice match on Sunday! So he's managed to get out of training Saturday morning and if he needs to he can get out of Thursday night as well! So we'll get there! All thats really left of the 'hard' work is one more coat of gloss around the frames etc, gloss painting 2 doors, put the border up (which I had to search high and low for might I add) and vaccuum the carpet. So all of which should easily be done by Saturday so I can start putting the furniture in on Sunday when he's at cricket!! He feels bad about how much time cricket is taking up but I know once the regular season starts it'll be fine and we'll have plenty of time!
Had a bit of a downer 'poor me' moment on the weekend as my 2 besties are in Bali with other people and it made me realise how much life is going to change for us or already has changed! BUT I've made this choice and I've wanted it very very much so I'm very happy with where I am! IT only takes a headbutt from little man or a giggle and a smile from baby Brodie (12 weeks) to remind me exactly why I am doing this!
Had a wonderful time with my nieces and nephews on Saturday - took Mak (6) shopping for some grown up time (she's growing up so quickly), played wii with Ri (almost 5) and helped feed etc. Brodie so it was lovely to spend some time with them! I see them all the time but rarely sit and actually give them one on one time!!
Tomorrow is my day off and I've got so many clothes that I need to go back to square one now and sort through them in individual sizes and do another cull... I'm blessed and fortunate to have been given so much but argh....there is sooooo much!!!!!!
Little man seems to have had quite the growth spurt over the last week or so! I can feel him everytime he rolls over and it only take a light press around my belly to find a hard spot which is part of baby!! He tends to hang around my belly button quite a bit! I'm pretty certain we can work out his tiny bum as we have a rough idea of where his head is (down to my right tucked in nicely) and he is generally laying sideways with little feet flailing every which way!! He hasn't seemed to work out if he shuffles around a bit he'll be able to stretch his legs a little bit more as I seem have all this empty space sitting up the top!
So it has definitely reached a point where yesterday and this morning I felt a definite elbow or knee in my hand as it was small and pointy and felt soooo weird!!! So definite!!! It's cool but weird!!!
Nursery is still coming together slowly! Will have to take more pictures!! Cricket and this damn Grand Final is taking up a lot of time with DP out almost every night with training, then he's supposed to train Saturday morning and then have a practice match on Sunday! So he's managed to get out of training Saturday morning and if he needs to he can get out of Thursday night as well! So we'll get there! All thats really left of the 'hard' work is one more coat of gloss around the frames etc, gloss painting 2 doors, put the border up (which I had to search high and low for might I add) and vaccuum the carpet. So all of which should easily be done by Saturday so I can start putting the furniture in on Sunday when he's at cricket!! He feels bad about how much time cricket is taking up but I know once the regular season starts it'll be fine and we'll have plenty of time!
Had a bit of a downer 'poor me' moment on the weekend as my 2 besties are in Bali with other people and it made me realise how much life is going to change for us or already has changed! BUT I've made this choice and I've wanted it very very much so I'm very happy with where I am! IT only takes a headbutt from little man or a giggle and a smile from baby Brodie (12 weeks) to remind me exactly why I am doing this!
Had a wonderful time with my nieces and nephews on Saturday - took Mak (6) shopping for some grown up time (she's growing up so quickly), played wii with Ri (almost 5) and helped feed etc. Brodie so it was lovely to spend some time with them! I see them all the time but rarely sit and actually give them one on one time!!
Tomorrow is my day off and I've got so many clothes that I need to go back to square one now and sort through them in individual sizes and do another cull... I'm blessed and fortunate to have been given so much but argh....there is sooooo much!!!!!!
Monday, September 27, 2010
Dp & Me
Yep - I'm another one who will copy of some of the other ladies! Great idea! But obviously I've changed some things as we aren't even engaged yet!!
1. When is your anniversary:
Our anniversary of becoming official is 15th February (he wanted it to be Valentine's day but spent too long talking to my friend trying to get the courage to ask me to be his girlfriend that midnight ticked over before he asked!!)
2. When is your “marriage” anniversary:
We aren't married....yet!
3. How long have you known your spouse:
We met in 2004 then lost touch for about 2 years!
4. How long did you date/court before you were engaged:
We aren't engaged yet - been together 19months (not long I know) but we also only dated for 2 weeks before we made things official. Pregnant with our angel bub after 8 months and he moved in after 9months so we've moved quickly!!
5. Where did you meet your spouse for the first time?
At a cricket club of a friend's brother when I was 20! I was way young.. thought he was sooo nice but was far too young at the time to want a relationship - too much to do!! After 2 years we started chatting on facebook randomly and caught up at his new cricket club - Back To School night!! hehe
6. What is your spouse’s full name:
Peter W E
7. Do you have any children:
1 angel bub (mc at 6w)
And one on the way!!!
8. How many – boys/girls:
Little Man on the way!!!!
9. Do you have any house pets:
My sisters 2 dogs live with us - A chiahwahwa (however it's spelt) Toby and Jack Russell X Tyson.
2 cats - Smudge and Almond! They are both like 19 now!!!
10. Do you own a house or rent:
Neither. A nifty little set up at my parents has allowed us our own unit so we can save to buy!
11. Do you live in the country or town/city:
Suburbs of City!
12. What is one of your favorite activities together:
Just hang out and be silly!
13. Do you have a favorite vacation spot:
Coffs Harbour!
14. When did you first kiss?
Well we did kiss WWAaAAAAAYYY back in 2005 at a nightclub but we were both veerryy drunk and it's a vague memory (how sad is that!!) But then the first 'real' kiss was 30th Jan 2009 - at Back to School Nigh!
15. What church do you attend?
None - if either of us goes it's me - he's non-religious.
16. Is this the church you were married in:
Hopefully get married on the beach at Coffs!!
17. What town is your current address at:
Melbourne
18. Do you work or stay at home:
Work (for 5 more weeks)
19. Where did you go on your honeymoon:
None yet but we want to go to US!
20. What was the funniest gift you gave when dating?
We haven't given each other funny gifts...just lovely ones!
21. How long have you been together?
19 months!
22. How long did you know each other before you started dating?
5 years
23. Who asked who out?
He asked me out at Karaoke one night!
24. How old are each of you?
He's 29, I'm 25.
25. Where do each of you go to school?
Both finished school
26. Which situation is the hardest on you as a couple?
Probably always just our financial situation!
27. Did you go to the same school?
Nope
28. Are you from the same home town?
A few suburbs away!! :)
29. Who is smarter?
I think he is.... but I forget that (how bad am I) but occasionally he'll say something and surprise me!!
30. Who is more sensitive?
Him! He's such a sweet heart but takes things too personally sometimes!!
31. Where do you eat out most as a couple?
Either at our favourite Indian or Thai restaurants!
32. Where is the farthest you two have traveled together as a couple?
Coffs Harbour!!
33. Who has the craziest exes?
Well he doesn't speak much of his.... but I think I might have!!
34. Who has the worse temper?
Me!! He doesn't get angry! I tend to be irrational from time to time!!
35. Who does the cooking?
Him - I'm very lucky in that he LOVES to cook and is very good at it!!
36. Who is more social?
Me -but we both are very social!
37. Who is the neat-freak?
Neither.. I like things cleaner but we are both pretty hopeless (does my head in hehe)
38. Who is more stubborn?
Him!!
39. Who hogs the bed?
Me.. which given he's 6'4" it's surprising how much room I'm willing to fight for!!
40. Who wakes up earlier?
Generally speaking me!
41. Where was your first date?
At a restaurant not far from home - Bar Bosh! Stayed there til they put the chairs up and kicked us out!
42. Who had more boyfriends/girlfriends?
I think roughly the same! We've never compared numbers!
43. Do you get flowers often?
Sometimes... he used to get them all the time for me, but then we joined finances and knows that if he bought some I'd wonder why he spent the money! hehehe
44. How do you spend the holidays?
Generally with my family and his dad!
45. Who is more jealous?
Neither...but if I had to pick one probably me!
46. How long did it take to get serious?
2 weeks!!
47. Who eats more?
Him!
48. Who does the laundry?
Me!
49. Who’s better with the computer?
I think we both are after years of working on computers!
50. Leave a piece of advice for the other couples.
Just be honest and respect each other and sometimes - you just have to let things slide!! If I bit at everything we'd fight a lot but sometimes it's just not worth the argument!!!
1. When is your anniversary:
Our anniversary of becoming official is 15th February (he wanted it to be Valentine's day but spent too long talking to my friend trying to get the courage to ask me to be his girlfriend that midnight ticked over before he asked!!)
2. When is your “marriage” anniversary:
We aren't married....yet!
3. How long have you known your spouse:
We met in 2004 then lost touch for about 2 years!
4. How long did you date/court before you were engaged:
We aren't engaged yet - been together 19months (not long I know) but we also only dated for 2 weeks before we made things official. Pregnant with our angel bub after 8 months and he moved in after 9months so we've moved quickly!!
5. Where did you meet your spouse for the first time?
At a cricket club of a friend's brother when I was 20! I was way young.. thought he was sooo nice but was far too young at the time to want a relationship - too much to do!! After 2 years we started chatting on facebook randomly and caught up at his new cricket club - Back To School night!! hehe
6. What is your spouse’s full name:
Peter W E
7. Do you have any children:
1 angel bub (mc at 6w)
And one on the way!!!
8. How many – boys/girls:
Little Man on the way!!!!
9. Do you have any house pets:
My sisters 2 dogs live with us - A chiahwahwa (however it's spelt) Toby and Jack Russell X Tyson.
2 cats - Smudge and Almond! They are both like 19 now!!!
10. Do you own a house or rent:
Neither. A nifty little set up at my parents has allowed us our own unit so we can save to buy!
11. Do you live in the country or town/city:
Suburbs of City!
12. What is one of your favorite activities together:
Just hang out and be silly!
13. Do you have a favorite vacation spot:
Coffs Harbour!
14. When did you first kiss?
Well we did kiss WWAaAAAAAYYY back in 2005 at a nightclub but we were both veerryy drunk and it's a vague memory (how sad is that!!) But then the first 'real' kiss was 30th Jan 2009 - at Back to School Nigh!
15. What church do you attend?
None - if either of us goes it's me - he's non-religious.
16. Is this the church you were married in:
Hopefully get married on the beach at Coffs!!
17. What town is your current address at:
Melbourne
18. Do you work or stay at home:
Work (for 5 more weeks)
19. Where did you go on your honeymoon:
None yet but we want to go to US!
20. What was the funniest gift you gave when dating?
We haven't given each other funny gifts...just lovely ones!
21. How long have you been together?
19 months!
22. How long did you know each other before you started dating?
5 years
23. Who asked who out?
He asked me out at Karaoke one night!
24. How old are each of you?
He's 29, I'm 25.
25. Where do each of you go to school?
Both finished school
26. Which situation is the hardest on you as a couple?
Probably always just our financial situation!
27. Did you go to the same school?
Nope
28. Are you from the same home town?
A few suburbs away!! :)
29. Who is smarter?
I think he is.... but I forget that (how bad am I) but occasionally he'll say something and surprise me!!
30. Who is more sensitive?
Him! He's such a sweet heart but takes things too personally sometimes!!
31. Where do you eat out most as a couple?
Either at our favourite Indian or Thai restaurants!
32. Where is the farthest you two have traveled together as a couple?
Coffs Harbour!!
33. Who has the craziest exes?
Well he doesn't speak much of his.... but I think I might have!!
34. Who has the worse temper?
Me!! He doesn't get angry! I tend to be irrational from time to time!!
35. Who does the cooking?
Him - I'm very lucky in that he LOVES to cook and is very good at it!!
36. Who is more social?
Me -but we both are very social!
37. Who is the neat-freak?
Neither.. I like things cleaner but we are both pretty hopeless (does my head in hehe)
38. Who is more stubborn?
Him!!
39. Who hogs the bed?
Me.. which given he's 6'4" it's surprising how much room I'm willing to fight for!!
40. Who wakes up earlier?
Generally speaking me!
41. Where was your first date?
At a restaurant not far from home - Bar Bosh! Stayed there til they put the chairs up and kicked us out!
42. Who had more boyfriends/girlfriends?
I think roughly the same! We've never compared numbers!
43. Do you get flowers often?
Sometimes... he used to get them all the time for me, but then we joined finances and knows that if he bought some I'd wonder why he spent the money! hehehe
44. How do you spend the holidays?
Generally with my family and his dad!
45. Who is more jealous?
Neither...but if I had to pick one probably me!
46. How long did it take to get serious?
2 weeks!!
47. Who eats more?
Him!
48. Who does the laundry?
Me!
49. Who’s better with the computer?
I think we both are after years of working on computers!
50. Leave a piece of advice for the other couples.
Just be honest and respect each other and sometimes - you just have to let things slide!! If I bit at everything we'd fight a lot but sometimes it's just not worth the argument!!!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
The ball is finally rolling! EEP!!!
Yep - the nursery ball is finally rolling and at an excellent pace! Peter FINALLYgot into the nursery over the weekend and had it all painted yesterday...well the walls anyways! The window/door frames and doors still need to be painted in Gloss White but the walls are done! YAAYY!!!
This is after the first coat of paint on it! I'm so happy with the colours! The top half is the colour of our lounge room and the bottom is called 'Green Fella'! I love it! It's come up so well!!
In that middle part under the mirror will be the chest of drawers with a change mat on top then wardrobes either side - which is handy as one side is good for hanging and pram storage and the other has shelves so good for storage of baby's stuff!
Just another angle of the room - and another coat or 2 on the walls! I'm so so excited with how it is all turning out! AND the fact the by the weekend we will have it all painted!
If the border isn't up by the weekend then I will get my parents to help me put it up as Peter is busy all weekend and I reeeaalllly want it up so I can then focus on getting my furniture and baby's stuff into the room!!
After much searching and deliberating on what border to roll with we finally decided on one to match the cot set we have got! I did manage to find one from the US but it was pretty expensive for the length - only 4.5m which I need much more of! SO for convenience sake we are rolling with the kidsline Zanzibar border as the animals and colours are fairly similar to the cot set and walls.
So it is all coming together and I couldn't be happier!! YAAAAYYYY!!!
Just so happy that it's finally all starting to happen!
As for bubs - well he has definitely had a growth spurt as his kicks and punches are soo strong now! We tried the jaffa on the belly thing last night after he was kicking my phone off but he decided not to co-operate! Instead he'd power kick once I ate the jaffa! GRRR! hahaha
Had the 3d/4d scan on Saturday - amazing! Will put some pics in the next post!! It's all just getting sooo real!!
Have my GCT tomorrow (diabetes test) AND have to get my Anti-D injection AND more blood tests! :( Just not cool! I hate feeling like a pin cushion! But hopefully all the sweet sweet wine and cordial etc. in the past have made for good practice of drinking this sweeeettt stuff I have to have tomorrow!!!
Anyway enough from me!! xxoxo
This is after the first coat of paint on it! I'm so happy with the colours! The top half is the colour of our lounge room and the bottom is called 'Green Fella'! I love it! It's come up so well!!
In that middle part under the mirror will be the chest of drawers with a change mat on top then wardrobes either side - which is handy as one side is good for hanging and pram storage and the other has shelves so good for storage of baby's stuff!
If the border isn't up by the weekend then I will get my parents to help me put it up as Peter is busy all weekend and I reeeaalllly want it up so I can then focus on getting my furniture and baby's stuff into the room!!
After much searching and deliberating on what border to roll with we finally decided on one to match the cot set we have got! I did manage to find one from the US but it was pretty expensive for the length - only 4.5m which I need much more of! SO for convenience sake we are rolling with the kidsline Zanzibar border as the animals and colours are fairly similar to the cot set and walls.
Just so happy that it's finally all starting to happen!
As for bubs - well he has definitely had a growth spurt as his kicks and punches are soo strong now! We tried the jaffa on the belly thing last night after he was kicking my phone off but he decided not to co-operate! Instead he'd power kick once I ate the jaffa! GRRR! hahaha
Had the 3d/4d scan on Saturday - amazing! Will put some pics in the next post!! It's all just getting sooo real!!
Have my GCT tomorrow (diabetes test) AND have to get my Anti-D injection AND more blood tests! :( Just not cool! I hate feeling like a pin cushion! But hopefully all the sweet sweet wine and cordial etc. in the past have made for good practice of drinking this sweeeettt stuff I have to have tomorrow!!!
Anyway enough from me!! xxoxo
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